I blinked

and it is over! Christmas is here and gone and I missed it, just like my life. With another year coming to a close it makes me depressed. I think about all the things I never did and all the things, which I am to old for and still want to do. Don't a have pitty party for me. I know I am responsible for my own doings. It just makes me sad that I never dreamed or was inspired to do more for myself and in a blink of an eye, it will be over.

Spoke to soon

The ugly witch raised her head today. Why does she have to be such a witch? The practice administrator said she wishes she would just leave! She needs to go! (The gal with the chip on her shoulder!)

Lots of tears today. Not from me, but from the nursing staff. They did a boo boo. Not anything to do with patient care they just didn't follow orders, which was just given to them on Friday. Less than a week ago.

MAN! Things are stressful!

Something changed

Last Friday everyone had individual meetings with the practice administrator and the head clinical coordinator. The person below who had a large chip on her shoulder has apparently decided to play by the rules....she has started "asking" and not "telling"....it is a nice surprise. Don't know how long it will last but will take it for now and deal with the other later.

I had a yummy lunch with friend Judy at MCL today. It was awesome comfort food. Yummy. I love coupons!

Chip on her shoulder

I have one person at work who has a very large chip on her shoulder. I was talking about her tonight with the family and Maggie thought I was talking about her and she started looking for a potato chip on her shoulder. She was eating Cheetos at the time...

How would you deal with this? I want your suggestions....One the girls who reports to me never asks...she tells. For example.."I will be leaving at 3 today." She emails it to me. I normally don't respond. She told practice administrator she wanted us to respond to her. I told practice administrator I don't respond because I am afraid I may say, "Are you asking or telling?" So, my question to you, how would you address someone under you (the same one who has a very large chip on her shoulder...) when she never asks, she always tells...I was brought up to ask. Even if it is "Would it be okay if...?" She has no respect for herself or anyone else. I know she would go ballistic no matter what so maybe I should just say, "Are you asking or telling...?" I just do not know. The fact in the matter is I don't care when she leaves and would not tell her no because she doesn't have any patient contact. As long as she does her job, then go...but to tell someone, your boss, well, I just never do that and really wish she wouldn't either....Your suggestions please?

Microderm on Saturday

I bit the bullet and called on my old spa to give me microderm abrasion for my face. I haven't had this treatment for over a year and a half and my skin was sick looking! So, I called my old spa and scheduled my appointment. I wasn't sure how it would go because the lady can be a crazy person. It turned out okay...not great but okay. The biggest problem is that she used to have an employee who is now one of my employees, and this person left on bad terms with her and this person is one of my best employees!! I got an ear full. It was not fun or relaxing, well microderm abrasion is never fun...but the entire time she yapped in my ear. I know both parties were hurt and I know the employee wants to make it right but I don't know if she will ever be able too. The Korean lady refuses to take any responsibility and she too has things to apologize for. You can't say someone if full of the devil when it simply is not so and think you have nothing to say sorry about. So, I left with a much smoother looking face, an ear full of pity for the situation on both ends and less money in my pocket. I did save for the microderm abrasion but it does hurt even when she gave me a 50% discount. (AND she made me take for free sunblock for the face...it cost retail $28 bucks! There was just no way of saying NO to her!!) If microderm didn't help my face, I certainly would NEVER do it but when I get this done it makes my face not only feel better but look better. I guess I will just bite the bullet each month and eat peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for the rest of my life to be able to afford it. It takes about 3 months in a row to get your face in shape and then about every 3 months to go back for maintenance. The other issue is the Korean lady wants to do my hair. She loves to cut and color. As good as her microderm treatments are, her hair and color skills are not where I feel comfortable for them to be. She was like, "Next time you come in, we do hair." I did a little scream inside.

Did you VOTE?

I asked to leave at 2 today so I could get to the polls before it got packed for the evening rush. I wish I knew why they closed at 6 p.m. This leaves very little time for people who work to get there! Last time, it was like HOURS so this time I decided I would ask to leave in the middle of the day. Hip Hip Hurray it WORKED! It took less than 5 minutes to vote and that included parking the car! So happy I was! I am VERY NERVOUS about the outcome! I know I have done my part and have very little input anyway but I am still nervous about the outcome. I think people every where are nervous. We have had so many weird things happen at work. Kids and parents alike are getting sick, passing out and weirding out on us. Is it a full moon??

Where did the month go to?

I just blinked and found out October has passed me by. It is SO DEPRESSING!

My work stinks right now. The practice administrator is going to call an office meeting soon. There is much negativity in the office and it starts with 3 people. That isn't a lot, however; it can damage an entire office. 2 of the 3 are in my department. I have had it with them too. They are lazy and defiant. They only do what they have to do and nothing else. Last week I found one of the girls in my department surfing the Internet. Since I am team lead, I spoke up and said "I would prefer that the return mail pile be worked on rather than surfing the Internet." You would have thought I killed her. One of the other gals who is an awesome worker told me this week that the 2, who I have problems with doing anything said, "She isn't my boss so how dare she ask me to do anything." This gal said, "Aren't you our boss? If you are not our boss then who are we supposed to go to?" So I asked the administrator again what my role was. I thought she was going to come unglued and she said she would put an end to this talk. Those 2 girls are black and white type of people and I guess she is going to have to use the term BOSS on them for them to understand that I have a HUGE input on their RAISES and REVIEWS. That it is MY JOB to give and pass out work and it is my JOB to write up any employees under me who do not follow the rules set forth. These 2 girls are going to go ballistic when they are finally told this...especially the part where I have input on raises and reviews. I think they just may have to change their panties when they are told what my job duties are. I hope it is sooner rather than later. Their attitudes are destroying the office.

My parents came up for Halloween. Maggie is Batman. Faith is Cleopatra and Krishe is the Ninja.

lunch with mom

My mom came up today and she and I went out to lunch. Maggie and her new friend Faith came along too. At dinner, Nana asked how old Faith was and she said 8 and that her birthday was in December. Somehow the conversation got to the point as to how old Nana was and Faith innocently suggested 96. I almost laughed myself silly.

Not to much going on here. I did get my dessert made for tomorrow's pitch in. I made chocolate covered strawberries. Faith's mom and dad went to Sam's Club yesterday and I asked her if she would check how much and if they had any. They were only $3.50 for a huge package so she picked me up 2 packages. Check that to do off my list.

Paul and Steph are back from their weekend away. I plan on cleaning my bathroom and recuperating from being the person in charge with Maggie. She is a handful at times...but I do love her.

EDUMACATION AT IT'S BEST

How would you pronounce this child's name: "Le-a" ???

Leah?? NO
Lee - A?? NOPE
Lay - a?? NO
Lei?? Guess Again.
It's pronounced "Ledasha" Oh yes...you read it right.
This child attends a school in Livingston Parish, LA. Her mother is irate because everyone is getting her name wrong. SO, if you see something come across your desk like this please remember to pronounce it correctly.

When the mother was asked about the pronunciation of the name, she said "the dash don't be silent".

Long Sunday

Today I decided to make carmel and chocolate covered pretzels. It has taken me ALL DAY! Of course I had to have a few breaks in there but I am still messing with this stuff! I didn't like the molds I bought to use for the pretzel rods. I probably will not be using them in the future either. It was easier to use a spoon. They turned out yummy. Some don't look so good but that doesn't affect the taste.

Maggie has a great friend next door! She and Faith have played together almost NON STOP this weekend! It was really great to see her outdoors playing. They made a fort out of cardboard boxes. I wonder what the weather is like in New Jersey?? This little girl wears furry boots and today I saw her with a coat. A WINTER COAT. She wasn't wearing it...but she had it next to her outside.

Hope everyone had a great weekend.

Update

Let me tell you a little about what I have been up to. Last Thursday, the practice administrator had each of us pull out a piece of paper from a basket. Each paper had a name of an associate we work with. We had to come up with 3 admirable qualities or something we look up to and/or respect on the person we picked. It could be either personal or professional. I pulled the worst person in our office. She is mean to us. She says she hates our patients families. She doesn't have anything nice to say to anyone. I showed the administrator and she laughed and laughed and laughed. I laughed too but I really had to stretch and dig deep. So I came up with these 3 things.

1. Spews confidence

2. Sharp analysis

3. No dependence of validation from others

MY MEANING of 1: She is very confident...to the point of making us to want to vomit!

MY MEANING of 2: She is quick to judge others.

MY MEANING of 3: She doesn't give a shit about what anyone else wants or feels.

So I went hoping into the clinical coordinators office and of course she knew who I had because the administrator had already laughed and laughed and told her...so I showed her my list. I thought she was going to fall off her chair. She said she "Loved my adjectives and that everything I said was true." So I bee bopped into the practice administrator and told her I was finished and asked if she wanted to see it....and she did. I thought she was going to fall over laughing. She even called her boss, the "BIG" administrator to share it with him...(EVERYONE KNOWS ABOUT THIS PERSON...and yet she stil gets away with it?!) and with her laughing, I couldn't help but laugh and almost potted my pants! I wasn't sure if she was going to read our lists a loud or if she was going to give each person their list....so I wrote in cursive using my LEFT hand because this person would know my writing.... This made her laugh even harder!! The administrator then said through her laughter, although they were all true, I had to redo them because there was NO WAY she could ever read them with a straight face. She said she was going to keep the list and anytime she needed a pick me up she was going to re-read them. The next day I went back into her office with 3 new ones. She said as she was getting ready for work that next morning, she let out a huge laugh thinking about what I came up with.

Oh and I forgot to tell you,
My new list:
1. Beautiful eyes and hair
2. Articulate speaker
3. Confident

It was very ackward! Most everyone wrote a book about the person they got...I had a few words...oh well. It was the best I could come up with!

More later!

Anti-Social Neighbor

We got new neighbors. I am pretty excited because they seem very friendly, although, I haven't spoken to them AT ALL. I wouldn't consider myself anti-social but I am feeling that way. The best news is they have a little girl. She is 8. Since Maggie is 7 it should be a good thing for her. The little girl (who is actually pretty big, or normal compared to Maggie, the peanut) came over to play last night. I seen her out so I came inside and told Maggie that she was outside and Maggie almost ran me over to get out. I can tell Maggie is very excited to have a new friend and one, who is next door is the best! I can remember my best friend living next door to me when I was young. I can't imagine what kind of person I would have turned out if it wasn't for her. Back to the neighbors, they are from New Jersey and they have very cute accents. One time I was in New Jersey and had to answer the phone at the place I was staying and the owner of the home wanted to know what sweet, southern gal was answering his phone while he wasn't at home. It amazes me how different we talk. The new neighbors asked about recycling and such. It was pretty embarrassing how far behind the times we are. It is mandatory there, as we all know. It seem mandatory every where but here. We are so behind in that area. Sad. I was pretty embarrassed to say the least.

My parents came up today and took us out to lunch. We went to one of my favorite hangouts....Michelangelo's. Loved it!

That is pretty much it for me. Hope everyone had a good weekend.

Monday is Crazy

We saw WAY TO MANY people today! I had to stay until almost 6 (and I get off at 4:30) so that I could play catch up because tomorrow we see DOUBLE the amount we saw today! We are also down one file clerk (who I terminated from the temp agency today) and one front person (who has to go to court for a speeding ticket!) ARGH! It is going to be a rough day tomorrow ..round 2!

One person in the back, who I am responsible for has decided to speak with me again. The other person hasn't said squat. Childish! I think I will recommend what Judy said about sending them to the employee assistance program to work out their issues.

That is about all for me. Not to much happened this weekend. Hoping for a trip to UNO's sometime in the near future...or Michelangelo's....for pasta. I want some pasta!

What a mad work world!

There are 2 people at work who make life for most miserable. These 2 people are from the "old" crowd and just need to go. Both of these people are not speaking to me and I am sure I do NOT know why....seriously. One is a nursing "assistant" and she isn't talking to any of us who work in the front. Sounds like a bad rumor to me. The other girl is someone I am responsible for and her actions are misguided. The practice administrator would love to see her gone as she has been trouble from the beginning. She has a huge chip on her shoulder and for some strange reason, believes I changed a policy or procedure regarding her job. The only reason I know this is because of this email she sent me:

I would appreciate it if I could be informed of changes that go on with the charts. The way things were initially done are now being changed with me having no knowledge of them, I know I’m not up in the front but I still would like to be informed on changes with the charts.

Thanks


My response...I didn't know what the heck she is taking about but wanted to address what should be happening and what wasn't happening with the charts:

Her Name:

I completely agree that you should be informed and included with any changes regarding charts preparation. I wasn’t aware any changes occurring so I apologize if there are any miscommunication.

My understanding and what I want to see happen is any patient who is new and added on the same day, the front is in charge of making the chart. The exception I see is if the patient is new for the following day and you are off or gone, (maybe we should consider a 2:30 cut off time??) front would then be responsible for making the chart. If the existing patient is an add on for the following day, we would request the chart.

I know there have been days when new patient charts were not made and you had to come in and make them without any notice. If someone in the front plans on making the chart the next morning, they need to communicate with you to let you know so that duplicates are not made. I don't think this has been happening so I will email everyone. If it continues to be an issue it will be addressed until it isn't an issue.

I had suggested that we email or call you if we add on a patient for the next day to give you a heads up. That was only a suggestion. Front is also supposed to notify you if the patient requires an authorization via phone/email so that it can be obtained either way. I hope this is still happening.

If any of the above has not been happening, then let's discuss what is happening so we all can work together efficiently.

I appreciate your help and work.

Signed my name

Yet 2 days later, she still doesn't speak or look at me. I didn't change a procedure. Nothing has changed. I suppose she is mad at something else and just won't talk to me about it. I don't know what I did or didn't do but I know it doesn't take much for her to go off into a tizzy. So since we don't care if she stays or goes, I am going to let her be a victum. Maybe she will transfer out of our department soon. Crossing fingers it is sooner than later. I wanted to try and smooth things over with her, thus the reason why I said I was sorry for miscommunication but I am done now and since I have the backing of the office administrator and know she is done too, then I am going to let her be mad and stay mad.

Who is this Katie person

Yesterday as we were driving to my parent house, we were speaking of all the kids at fraubyers house the night before. I had mentioned Katie's name several time. Maggie spoke up and asked, "Who is this Katie person of yours?". Made us laugh!

Thanks to mom for this one!

The Lone Ranger and Tonto went camping in the desert.

After they got their tent all set up, both men fell sound asleep.

Some hours later, Tonto wakes the Lone Ranger and says, 'Kemo Sabe, look towards sky, what you see?'

'The Lone Ranger replies, 'I see millions of stars.'

'What that tell you?' asked Tonto.

The Lone Ranger ponders for a minute then says, 'Astronomically speaking, it tells me there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets.

Astrologically, it tells me that Saturn is in Leo.

Time wise, it appears to be approximately a quarter past three in the morning.

Theologically, the Lord is all-powerful and we are small and insignificant.

Meteorologically, it seems we will have a beautiful day tomorrow. What's it tell you, Tonto?'

'Tells me you dumber than buffalo shit. It means someone stole the tent.'

Lost Churches of Louisiana

One of the local television stations in South Louisiana aired an interview
with a woman from New Orleans. The interviewer was a woman from a Boston affiliate.

She asked the New Orleans woman how such total and complete devastation of the churches in the area had affected their lives. Without hesitation, the woman replied, 'I don't know bout all them other peoples, but we haven't gone to Churches in years. We gits all our chicken from Popeye's'.

The look on the interviewer's face was priceless.

Sorry about this folks, but it make me laugh!

Update of sorts

Friday night found me drained but I was delighted to go out with friends for a birthday celebration. On Saturday, the celebration continued as we went over to a friends home and had a cookout. It was fun seeing so many different people together and so many children playing well together. I think the head count was 15 children and 15 adults. Not sure of that one but I was amazed at how well everyone played nice with each other...even the adults! Today we are off to my parents home for a cookout. My mom will make a feast as she always does.

More later...

Disappointment

Thursday I have lunch plans with my friend Judy. It is a good thing to because it was also a pitch in lunch for 2 employees who are leaving. (One is a favorite nurse and the other is a xray tech who needs to go..she has a bad attitude)....anyway, I made the Stephanie Byers casserole for the pitch in and burnt it! I basically threw away $22 bucks! Mrs. P said we would eat it for dinner tomorrow. It isn't burnt to the point of being totally ruined but one would not feed it to guests or want to take it in to share...It is only good to share with family! I was very disappointed! This is the 2nd time I made the casserole and the 2nd time it did not turn out well! I guess I should hang up my apron....made the darn thing and didn't cut myself or even burn myself...just burnt the darn food! What a shame!

Monday, Sept 1

My goal today is that I am working on not being so depressed. Nothing more than that and that is a lot.

Totally Funny

So last night, Maggie was still going on about me not being able to remember how to spell the word OF. She thinks that is so funny! One thing led to another and I had mentioned that I needed to get up and go to the bathroom. The next thing I knew, she had handwritten me a note....She handed it to me and I read it:

"Need to go poop"

We laughed and laughed because I think, even if my mind is elsewhere...I surely think I could remember to do that if I needed to!

She is a funny girl!

Losing It

Yesterday I forgot my password to get into the computer at work. I totally locked myself out and had to have the help desk unlock me and then change it. Today, I had to email Anthem for a precert and forgot my password. I locked myself out after 3 times and they sent me my memory word so that I could recover it. The problem was I couldn't remember what the memory word meant. The word I chose was "music". After they reset my passcode I remember it! DUH! Tonight I was playing hangman with niece and SIL and forgot how to spell the word OF! My niece thought it was funny since she knew how to spell it. I am afraid I am losing my mind. LOL!

Bad night

Last night I was lost and confused! Why? I forgot my Sudoku book at work! (LOL!) I was sure to remember it tonight and have already started playing it again.

Work is weird...everyone is coming to me for help and telling me their troubles. I have enough of my own thank you....but it is a core value at my job so I bite the bullet.

Today one of the gals who used to work in the front office came back for a visit. It was really, really tense. I felt very weird!

Crazy for sudoku

I had a birthday lunch celebration with my friend Luci on Saturday. She introduced me to her love of sukoku and my OCD has kicked in. Not that I have or have ever been diagnosed with OCD but it sure feels like I have it sometimes! Anyway, we had lunch on Saturday and she gave me a sample of the game so I went to Target that evening and purchased a book for myself. I really enjoy the game. I will probably end up seeing numbers in my sleep. Wouldn't it be fantastic if the numbers were ones which won the lottery? Just to bad I don't play...

Stinkin

This morning I was greeted from Maggie asking me why I wore what I wore to work every day. I wear a uniform is what I told her. She said you wear the same one every day? I said not the same one, I have 5 pairs of pants and different shirts. She replied with..."I was just thinkin, if you wore the same clothes everyday you sure would be a stinkin".

I just love her mind!

Friday Wow's

Friday night I stayed late at work so I could go out with new friend Amanda. She and I went to a store and eyed a few items, which we could not yet purchase and then walked over to a nice and clean pub afterwards. We ate and talked and talked. It was just a nice way to end a long week. I don't know if it was because I had 3 cokes or if it was because I was out in the night (something I never do!) but I felt like a wild teenager! We didn't leave the place until almost ten o'clock. I am normally at home at this time. Imagine my surprise when I saw all the crazies out and about too! I was shocked at how people dress and was amazed there were so many out that late. I became alarmed at how old I am getting.

Chuckle

Last evening Maggie had a scarf around her neck, which make it look like a cape on her back. With one sock on and one off Mommy asks "Maggie, why do you only have one sock on?" Her response, "I would much rather wear one because two does not please me now good bye and good day." And off with the wind she went with her scraf cape flying.

Early Monday Morning Blues

I can't wait to get home tonight so I can go back to sleep. (I wonder if a certain little one will allow this of me?)

It's going to be a long day folks!

Goodies

I got some really good stuff for my birthday this year! To bad I can't upload my pictures so you could see them..... :(

One of the best gifts I could EVER have gotten was a call from family. I was told Maggie really was missing me. This made my day and possibly my week! I will think about how I felt hearing she missed me for a long time. It was the best feeling and gift I think I got!...and I got some good stuff!

I want to get my girlie's out and about for dinner in the next week or two. Anyone up for it? Sex and the City is now playing at the cheap movie place on 86th Street too....

Crazy times

You wouldn't even believe what has happened during families vacation!! One day the water heater went OUT and I had to take cold showers for 2 days until it was installed (my parents came up and waited on the people to install it so I didn't have to miss work!) Also....the sump pump went out because of the storm so the water came up into the basement and the alarm was going off! I had to find someone to come in and look/fix that! CRAZY stuff this week!

They really do like me!

Today I was given a surprise luncheon by everyone at work for my birthday. This was a surprise because I had NO idea! I got a beautiful box full of goodies and another box full of charms and things plus a friend/coworker took me out to dinner. I was surprised at the turn out for food for lunch! You never know who your friends are since there is SO MUCH back stabbing and talk but I guess they really do like me! I actually felt like they did! This made me feel better about things at work. I can tell you...there have been other going away luncheons and other types of gatherings and many people DID NOT participate. The doctor even brought food trays for me. I felt that with the turn out that maybe, they really do like me!

Ahh...much better

Tonight found me in better spirits. I went out with 3 of my bestest friends and we celebrated my birthday. I got some great gifts and had a great dinner at one of my favorite places. When I arrived home my niece had picked a gift out for me with her Daddy (my brother) and she not only decorated the package, she made me a card. She immediately began opening the gift and I was most delighted to find a lighted waterfall. Daddy said she hand picked it out. The only down fall was that she sure wished there were 2 so she could have one too. After looking at the water fall (and lights, which changes color on the glass) I then got to watch one of her movies with her. Don't feel sorry for me...I LOVE spending time with her and LOVE that she wants me to watch her movies WITH her so I don't mind a bit! Anyway afterwards we had to sit in the dark and watch the water fall again. Next, she suggested, that we take the water fall upstairs to her room. She wanted me to put the water fall in her room for the night since she was leaving for vacation tomorrow and wouldn't have a chance to look at it for awhile. Hummm....what do you think this means? Wonder if the water fall will ever make it back to me? I can assure you, I do not care! I love the fact that she loves it and would glady let her have it if parental units agree....I love her and love seeing the joy the water fall gives her so that is such a gift and enough for me. She makes my life so worth living...

Work and a bad hair day

It is SO hot in my office! I hate how hot it is! Another complaint I have is I have a stack of work and I need help. If you are sitting playing on the computer at work and see another person who is working and working and having to stay late...would you ask them if they could help you? We all get paid the same $12 bucks an hour....it wouldn't hurt you anyway to get off your you know what and help....frustrating! How many times do I have to ask for help before it is given to me without having to ask for it? Teamwork is missing! I am sad and depressed. The biggest issue is we deal with children all day and in the summer, kids get hurt and this causes my duties to rise about 150%...okay, off my soap box now. Deep breathe in and out.

Hope everyone else in the world has had a good day! The night should end on a positive note as I am going out for my birthday with my girl friends! Looking forward to that!

Not as good as yesterday....but still no Sybil

Sybil has left the building...at least for the time being. I did see her raise her ugly head a tiny bit twice today but she quickly faded away. Pretty soon she will have a different job in another part of my building so I won't have to "deal" with her much...just wish it was sooner rather than later....Her daughter brought in her 3year old grandson today...Sybil LOVES her grandson so I did what any person who is trying to buy points would do, I purchased a Spiderman coloring book for him. (It is his FAVORITE!) He was so excited. I was hoping to buy some points from Sybil thinking she wouldn't be mean to me today. It did work for today. I am not sure what I will have to buy her tomorrow. Go away Sybil, please don't come back.

Work was pretty overwhelming to me today. I have SO MUCH work to do! Since I have to precert any surgeries and tests and get referrals for all office visits and this is the busiest time of the year, I have a stack and I mean a STACK of them to do. I do 3 or 4 and I get 7 or 8 more. It's depressing. This will continue until December I am told. I do that plus all the other stuff I do daily and there isn't enough time in the day! I just "get done" what I have to and push everything else aside. I don't like working like that.

WONDERFUL DAY!!

Man! 24 hours later and look what happens! Sybil came in and was kind and fun all day long!

So....Sybil got 5 prescriptions! One being a NEW anti-depressant and another one for cramps! Can I get an AMEN?

Sybil and I also talked out a few issues...Yesterday, Sybil ran to the administrator and said the temp said I said blah blah blah about her. The administrator said..."Sybil, this is a very good lesson for you....it wasn't Auntie who said those things in the office about you it was coworker # 1 and I should know as I was there when it was said." So this morning while we were alone as we were talking I said to Sybil...."Sybil, have you ever heard me say ANYTHING negative about any of our coworkers?" And she said "no, I never have...." ..........That is the way it will stay too because I can go home and blog about you and tell all my friends about you Sybil...I don't have to say things to coworkers as I have plenty of people and the world wide web to talk to! (smiles!)

Everyone got along great today. It was such a nice relaxing change!

Please Sybil, go away and don't come back another day!

Stressful work

Why can't everyone just play nice and be nice to each other?? I guess one of the reasons is because we have a psycho working with us. Sybil...we never know who she is going to be from one moment to the next. The good news is that she went to her doctor today and hopefully she will get on some different meds. She is messed up! I have to feel sorry for her but at the time time, I need to protect myself from her crazy self. Today she asked the boss if I were her boss?!?! I have NEVER EVER even acted like her boss...EVER! Normally I don't talk to her much and just do my thing. Today I did say, "Hey, I have a suggestion...and it is just a suggestion so perhaps you guys won't agree but what if we have one of the new girls sit at the front desk. Let her actually run the desk because the girl who normally does it is going to be out for awhile and it would be good for one of them to get the hang of it while there is still help here...." I then said it was really none of my business but thought I would bring it up. I actually said..."It was none of my business"...... That was pretty much WORD FOR WORD what I said...Does this sound like I am the boss?? UGH! When the administrator told me this I immediately asked her if I was to bossy..and she said NO not at all. (I can tell you that is very hard for me to NOT be bossy at times but I normally turn around at my desk when I think I might become bossy!! It is very hard for me to so I do make an effort to to it!) Anyway administrator also said Sybil was probably picking up on the fact that she gives me administrative types of duties like the office manager used to do and was just curious if I was taking that role. I don't know if I can work with Sybil and be her boss...it would be hard because I would be writing her up left and right for bad attitude and how she talks down to patients and coworkers! It ain't pretty!

We have a new guy at work...I asked him in front of the practice administrator if he thought he could handle caddy women. He laughed and said he was used to it from the practice he came from before. I think he is going to get a big kick out of working with us! I hope he can stand all the talk!

That is pretty much been my last 2 days! Fun time in the big city!

Yesterday and Today

Last evening I found myself at a friends house eating s'mores round their fire pit. Can I say how much fun that is and was! I was feeling pretty good about my health too and had a drink. Perhaps that is why I was feeling good and slept well. Today, was another day...I was not feeling my best but went to work anyway. I guess I should have had a shot of rum before, during and after work in order for me to feel good. It is weird to drink as I don't consider myself a drinker...less than 10 drinks a year and usually a fruity drink, which doesn't carry enough alcohol in it to make a fly drunk. Anyway, I was so TIRED when I got home I went straight to bed. I got up for about an hour to spend time with my wonderful family, got re medicated and now going back to bed. Tomorrow is a new day....hopefully I will find it without a sinus/cold infection.

Allergies causing sinus infection??

I am sick. Had a pretty bad night of it. Starting taking drugs right off the bat on Friday and the Mucinex started last night when I woke up choking. I just hope I can nip this in the bud before having to go to a doctor.

Is it hot outside? I wouldn't know for sure. I did want to go and help Luci take down things at her house today...that really was my plan but I want to be well sooner rather than later. I feel I may push back my healing process if I over do it. I can't afforad to be off work.

Not much new to say or tell today. Just trying to heal. Hope everyone is having a good restful Sunday.

For the love of...a heat stroke!

Miserable...miserable...miserablely HOT HOT HOT!!! It was so miserably HOT! There were guest who passed out. The tent was so hot...people were not moving an inch and was sweating through their clothes! It was a good thing I got my hair cut off or I would have shaved it off during the ceremony. Repeat...DURING THE CEREMONY! On a positive note, my makeup held up really well. The not so good news...I took off way to early! BEFORE the CAKE WAS CUT! I couldn't find the bride or groom to say goodbye so I said my goodbyes to others who I knew. It was either leave or pass out and I didn't want to pass out. My head was throbbing so I knew I had to get out of there! I was about 5 minutes from home when I was called from Luci's mobile so I guess she figured out that I left....without saying goodbye....but I couldn't find her. I didn't answer the call either...just didn't feel like I could talk and drive at the same time I guess. I am WIPED out and plan on going to bed the minute I get off the computer!

On the way home, I heard on the radio a DJ said.."Call in on Monday morning and finish this sentence". "I will never (fill in the blank)."

So hear goes mine...

I will NEVER....go to, help plan or have an outdoor wedding during the middle of July!

Your turn to play!

For the love of...the wedding day morning (part 2)

I have already received a call from Luci. One of the tents blew completely down and the other one (picture a tent the size of a circus would use) fell down on one of the sides. The grass is wet so the chairs will sink when you sit in them...and they had to move all the tables and chairs....! She has asked that I make and bring 3 Reserved signs...my camera...and her necklace, which I am fixing for her to wear during the ceremony. Her other friends are already there (they live close!) and they were getting ready to put the tables and chairs back in place and decorate. I am starting to feel pressured. Not that she has pressured me AT ALL...I am putting pressure on MYSELF to get myself in gear and go and HELP!

And it is still raining here and THERE and my NOSE is also pouring! (IS that too much info to share?)

For the love of ..... A GOOD FRIEND!

Yesterday I took the day off from work. One of my best friends, Luci, is getting married today and she asked me to take Friday off to help her get ready. Lord I didn't know what that meant until I got to her house.

The wedding is taking place outside...in the middle of July. OUTSIDE. Anyway, I put on my best big girl panties and went to the other side of the world Friday morning at 10 a.m. It was pretty warm at 10 a.m. The HUGE tent was set up by the tent people but all the tables and chairs needed to be put up. Did I mention, there were 250 RSVPs who said they were coming?? Calculate how many tables and chairs that meant, which 4 of us girls had to carry, place and set up. HOT HOT HOT! We were all sweating like crazy!

After this task was done, Luci gave Connie and I some money to go and purchase CENTER PIECES for each of the 32 guest tables. Also, we had to get decorations for the cake, get flowers for the arch, plants to place in front of the arch and anything else we thought we may need. All this the day before the wedding. We, being supportive got into the car and headed to Hobby Lobby. It was late afternoon and I was getting hungry since I hadn't eaten. I said, "Connie, I would like to eat soon as I haven't eaten yet today and I am getting hungry." So we decided to get a bite of food. We get to Hobby Lobby and we are off on a mission. It took forever to find and decide what to do but we did it. Just a few more items left on our list and we headed to Michaels. Hip Hip! I few more hours (it seemed) and we found a few more items needed. I am getting tired now and then she mentions she need to go to the restroom. I agreed so we found the restrooms. We come out and I said, "I am so thirsty". I would love to get a drink soon. We finish up and I jokingly say, "I got these 2 bags...You can carry the trees!" She laughed too and said they weren't heavy. Walking back to the car, I say "I am so done now." "I am tired". We laugh and push everything in the car....literally... She asks where I would like to get a drink and I suggest Starbucks. She said she she wanted to get ice cream at Maggie Moo's. I said, okay let's nix Maggie Moo's and go to Starbucks...I meant to say nix Starbucks and go to Maggie Moo's....(I said I was tired!!) so we both laughed when I said..NONO..I meant the other way around. I then said I was happy to have everything done on her list...it was good to get everything she wanted and to be finished. I didn't think we could do it at the last moment.

We get back to Luci's house...OUTSIDE where the wedding is and the tables and chairs have been moved by the groom. He decided he wanted to mow. Why he didn't mow the day BEFORE when the tent wasn't up, we will never know....NO WAY! I was thinking NO WAY am I moving those tables and chairs back...of course I would have for Luci and I never said anything out loud but thank the Lord, the groom put all the tables and chairs back perfectly because my feet were hurting after all the shopping! So we went to work on the flower and table arrangements. Finally we got what we could done and decided to wait on putting the final arrangements with the table cloths on until today...the wedding day...just in case it

1. Rained
2. Morning dew
3. Got windy
4. Tornado
5. fill in the blank

At the end of the night, Connie told everyone I complained the entire day. (We laughed the entire day and had fun too)...but she wanted everyone to know what a prissy, city girl I really was....

Just think about what I have written...she told everyone I said...

"I'm hungry"
"I have to go to the bathroom"
"I am thirsty"
"My feet hurt"
"I'm tired"
"I'm done"

So since Luci wasn't bridezilla someone said I was friendzilla. Hey, I laughed at that too....I know it was all in good fun poking fun of me...and if I had taken everything she said to me and I could have poked fun of her too...but making fun of me was funny!

Okay, does everyone know the real reason why I don't do outside very well??? I have allergies. I have known this for years but try to push myself sometimes....NOT GOOD thing to do the day before a friends wedding. I had to get up in the middle of the night and go find a store to get allergy and sinus medication. I thought to myself I may end up in the emergency room but luckily I found an open drug store and got some stuff. I am still feeling like poop but at least I can breath some out of my nose. This is a good thing.

So TODAY is the wedding. When I woke up early this morning I heard the rain and I thought OH NO POOR LUCI! Thankfully it stopped here and I hope it isn't raining at her house.

I am about ready to give Luci a call to see what time she will need me. We talked about noon..(The wedding is at 4:30) but here is hoping I won't have to go so early...

stay tuned...

Pretty Good Work Day For Once!

Today the practice administrator asked me to make pre-screening calls on potential candidates for new employment. Can I tell you how this made my heart sing? I LOVED IT! These are the kind of things I enjoy doing! The other girls in the office didn't know what to think. None of them realize I have had prior experience in this area...and since I am doing a lot of what the old office manager did, I bet they wonder if I am working my way up to become a unit manager...I HOPE I HOPE! They need me in the office as much as I need to be in that office. There are so many things to change and do more effectively and I can't wait to get ideas and changes made! Time will tell for sure!

He's a boy

Today we were watching a clip from Mag's school play. Mommy noticed a boy in the play and said "Why does that boy have his hands down his pants?" Mag's friend Lily stated..."Why do you think? He's a boy!" We all laughed.

So true Lily...so true!

Tin WoMAN Has A Heart?

``Life is too short, time is too precious, and the stakes are too high to dwell on what might have been,'' ``We have to work together for what still can be. And that is why I will work my heart out to make sure that Senator O is our next president.''

Sorry, I wish it weren't true but I just don't trust this woman or her family. I hope she doesn't get the VP nomination because I wouldn't trust someone in her inner circle of hers to knock off the man in charge just so she could become the leader. And NO...I am not a Republican.

What a week!

It seems my office gets rid of one negative person and another pops up and takes their place! I was wondering if it was me with all the people issues....comes to find out it isn't. There are several people in the office with the same issue with a coworker. She is VERY negative, negative, negative...and she has taken it out on both her coworkers and what I consider much more important...our patients families. How she greets people both on the phone and at the front window is sometimes the first impression given. She needs to up her meds or something.... She can't multi-task and in this job you MUST be able to do that. The head nurse called me into her office yesterday and asked me questions about her and I said that she seemed to be a pretty good worker...but maybe she was doing the wrong desk job. She shouldn't have patient contact or even employee contact for that matter. What I said wasn't a surprise to her because everyone before me said similar stories...except I didn't say she was a "Witch" with a capital B. I guess that word was used by someone else....I keep telling myself to give it time. Three people have left since I started and they were all a part of the click...this last negative person has got to go too. I think it is only a matter of time. I just hope it is sooner than later.

Still sad

I think about my old boss a lot. I hope he is doing okay and wonder if he is well all the time. I won't call because I have left several messages last year and never received a call back....I am assuming he doesn't want to speak with me...and this saddens me. When I lost my job, I did blame him. Looking back, it wasn't entirely his fault as I believe anyone working there has blame on their shoulders too. He made bad choices and so did I...we all did. Tonight, I called his cell number in error. I had NO IDEA it was him until he picked up. I panicked and hung up on him. A couple minutes later, he rang me back. I didn't pick up and he didn't leave a message. He may not have known who's phone number called as my voice message doesn't have my name, just the pre-recorded message from Sprint. There have been many times I have cried about the situation but what is done is done. I spoke to a friend on the way home and she said I should call him. She said I must have called him subconsciously and maybe it was time for me to make a mends. Right now I just can't. I don't know if my heart will take rejection if it were to come. I do know I am sadden deeply and hopefully time will heal my hurt.

Grandma's letter.

She is eighty-eight years old and still drives her own car.

She writes:

Dear Granddaughter,

The other day I went up to our local Christian book store and saw a 'Honk If You Love Jesus' bumper sticker. I was feeling particularly sassy that day because I had just come from a thrilling choir performance, followed by a thunderous prayer meeting.

So, I bought the sticker and put it on my bumper.

Boy, am I glad I did! What an uplifting experience that followed.

I was stopped at a red light at a busy intersection, just lost in thought about the Lord and how good He is, and I didn't notice that the light had changed. It is a good thing someone else loves Jesus because if he hadn't honked, I'd never have noticed.

I found that lots of people love Jesus!

While I was sitting there, the guy behind started honking like crazy, and then he leaned out of his window and screamed, ' For the love of God! ''Go! Go! Go! Jesus Christ, GO!'

What an exuberant cheerleader he was for Jesus!

Everyone started honking! I just leaned out my window and started waving and
Smiling at all those loving people.

I even honked my horn a few times to share in the love!

There must have been a man from Florida back there because I heard him yelling something about a sunny beach.

I saw another guy waving in a funny way with only his middle finger stuck up in the air.

I asked my young teenage grandson in the back seat what that meant.

He said it was probably a Hawaiian good luck sign or something.

Well, I have never met anyone from Hawaii , so I leaned out the window and gave him the good luck sign right back.

My grandson burst out laughing.

Why even he was enjoying this religious experience!!

A couple of the people were so caught up in the joy of the moment that they got out of their cars and started walking towards me.

I bet they wanted to pray or ask what church I attended, but this is when I noticed the light had changed. So, I grinned and waved at all my brothers and sisters, and drove on through the intersection.

I noticed that I was the only car that got through the intersection before the light changed again and felt kind of sad that I had to leave them after all the love we had shared.

So I slowed the car down, leaned out the window and gave them all the Hawaiian good luck sign one last time as I drove away.

Praise the Lord for such wonderful folks!!

Will write again soon,

Love, Grandma

Yesterday I Cried, Well Actually Today

I was broken down today. I let all the negative people get to me and I ended up crying. I sure wish it didn't bother me but hateful and mean people really do suck, just like the bumper sticker reads. The practice administrator called me into her office to talk and kept prying and asking questions and finally I cried. She reminded me that her office was a safe place and she hugged me. She said one of the nurses talked to her and said she felt really really bad about things. The nurse told her I was the most positive person she had ever met and yet it only took right over a month for me to get down. Isn't that just pitiful? My heart just isn't singing but I want it to sing so badly. I want to love my job and feel good about what I am doing but I am not and I don't know what to do to change the situation. I don't want to quit. The organization I work has wonderful benefits and I know that it could be a really great place....I am really working on not letting all the negative affect me but a lot of it is directed straight at me. You see, the person who actually gave her notice and then was let go before her notice was up had a lot of negative friends who still work there. The practice administrator has given me many of her responsibilities and has moved me into her desk space...some of girls who have worked there for awhile are really upset because I have access to things, which they do not....so who do they take their frustration out on??? Yep, me. It isn't anything, which I can run and tell (nor would I) it is just petty stuff and they are trying to get "at me" with their sly comments. I just do my best to ignore or pretend I have no idea what is going on...I sure hope it gets better soon. I see another batch of meanness coming soon because the entire negative gang (including the one who was let go) is getting together next weekend. I don't think I will get much relief for at least another 30 days or so until it all dies down again. I keep praying for my strength and not to let it bother me so much...but I am an emotional girl who wears her heart on her sleeve....I am also not used to this kind of stuff in the workplace.

I want my heart to sing again. I get so much joy and pride from my work and things have to get better soon! It just has to!!

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. Love the people who treat you right. Forget about the ones who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy. They just promised it would be worth it.

Evening

Today was a BUSY BUSY day but a good one even though I had to work until almost 7 pm! We are being audited by one of the big insurance carriers tomorrow. It is a site visit so we all stayed late and made sure everything was in it's proper place. It isn't like our office is trashy or anything but it was a good to get things re-organized and put into its proper place.....at least a few hours. The reason why it was so busy was one of the girls who work at the front desk was sick. So I had to fill in and I haven't ever worked up in that position before so things were crazy. I had to do my job plus help answer phones and check people in and all that good stuff. I didn't even get a chance to have a cup of coffee so I was starving to death! (Coffee helps my hunger pains!)

I am getting more and more responsibility from the practice administrator. This is a VERY GOOD THING! Last week she had a meeting with each of us and she asked me what I wanted to do as far as jobs. I told her I wanted to be her right arm. She was pleased and said she needed another arm. Little by little I hope to take the lead position in the office. I have the experience and with each day, I think she realizes I am more than capable. Today she had a couple things assigned to me, which used to be the responsibility of my old boss. This only makes me happy to know she trusts me to do the job. Now if I could only make more money...that would be the icing on the cake. She seems far so hopefully that too will come in time.

Monday Morning

"Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see the beauty, believe in them and try to follow where they lead."
Louisa May Alcott

I loved this quote, which was sent to me from my work. Everyday, sometimes twice a day everyone gets an uplifting message. I love getting them. It helps me stop and think about something other than what is in front of me.

Today is a new day. I plan on making the best day I can and I am going to push the butterflies and stomach ache away.

Stress

Crazy things at work. The manager gave her notice and she was let go a couple days later. Some of her cronies are all up in arms. After it dies down I think the office is going to be a good one and I can't wait. I have been having stomach aches lately and I am sure it is my nerves.

GERD, Acid Reflux, Smoking and Gossip

I had my first episode of this....we had wings for dinner and the yucky taste kept coming up and into my throat. It was the worst thing I had experienced before!!! I made sure I took some Prevacid when I felt it in my throat but it was BAD! My doctor once told my mom I had this and I kept saying I never did and now knowing what it is exactly I know I have never had it before but plan on never having it again. No more spicy wings for me for dinner!!!

We all went out for dinner tonight to a family pub here in Westfield. Afterwards I almost got sick in the car. The smoke kept coming up and choking me I couldn't get in the house soon enough to get the smell off me. It was just bad!

Work is going pretty good. Soon the person who stirs up gossip in the office will be gone. She gave her notice and not to soon....I want her job too!

Mom you are a shining star though the world doesn't know your name.
You have no fancy title like Baroness or Dame.
Mom you really are a star, my mother mentor and friend.
A Nobel Prize for motherhood is what I'd recommend.
And if I won the lottery I'd share my win with you
I'd take you Mom on a spending spree each day the whole year through!
You may not be famous, as your face is known to few.
But Mom I think you are wonderful and I'm so proud of you!

Thursday Morning

I am writing this in a hurry as I haven't finished getting ready for work. Speaking of work, it is a stress mess. One of the girls leaves next Friday as she is going back to school...she will be missed. Another lady, who is a boss of ours, gave her notice but not in time to stir up a huge mess. I seriously think she wants to sabotage the office so it won't run well after she leaves. Another girl has decided she can't work there because of the politics of the girls, I totally can understand her position. This leaves 2 girls. One who said she will leave if the new boss who comes in is a Witch with a capital b. Well, anyone who comes in is going to be a witch to her because she comes and goes as she pleases. She is a best friend of the boss who is leaving and has favors from her all the time. That is going to stop I am sure. This leaves one new person left....and then me. The busiest time of the season is coming and I can see me and the other new girl having to run the front. I haven't even been trained because it isn't my responsibility but knowing I am "in that department" know I will be called upon. It is really sad to watch it all unfold. Knowing what is happening and keeping my mouth shut and out of it is the best for me in the long run but it saddens me.

Obama wins most delegates in Tuesday's primaries

The lesser of two evils has won this one and I feel blessed. I was so scared...

Tax Checks This Month

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starbucks

I woke up with a horrible headache and I want Starbucks! Why isn't there any drive thru Starbucks in my area? I want to go through a drive thru in my pjs! I don't feel like dressing and going in because of this horrible headache!

Far away

"Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach
them, but I can look up and see the beauty, believe in them and try to
follow where they lead."
Louisa May Alcott

I loved this saying. It came in one of my emails from work. Each day we are sent information about what is going on in our place of employment as well as local stuff and the email starts out with a quote or something positive. Love that stuff! This is a really great place where I am working! It has a good foundation for growth. They consider it a ministry.

What rhymes with bells and starts with an H?

You just won't believe what I did! I didn't turn in my last assignment for one of my classes. Normally all assignments are due on Sunday midnight so I just thought the same for this assignment. The problem is that is the a HUGE part of my grade..worth 150 points. The good news is...if I am unable to turn the paper in, I still pass. The grade structure is:

70-79 = C
80-89 = B

Without the assignment I end up with a grade of 79.7. Does this mean I get a C or do they round and I get a B? Or will the number be shown only??

UGH! What a waste of time and energy to make sure I pass all these weeks with a high A to do something as stupid as this. Live and learn...

Not much new

Work is going fine, other than it is blazing hot in the office all the time. The air conditioning just doesn't work. Everyone is dying and it isn't' even hot outside yet.

I have lots to do today. I have to finish my homework for school, do laundry, pay bills and clean my bathroom. It is going to be a busy day.

Thursday

I have already gotten someone in trouble at work!! (I promise you...I didn't mean to!)

One of the girls in the back office asked me how I was doing, if I liked the job and if anyone was being mean to me. To the last question I answered, "Of course, who would be mean?" She didn't answer. I then asked another girl, one who I work next to who I have a pretty good relationship with if she was going to start being me to me or if she knew if there were people who would be mean to me. She was dumbfounded....she said who told you that and who said that?? I told her about the conversation I had had and she asked who with and I told her. I said, "Oh no...What is going on or should I ask?" The girl who asked me if anyone was being mean is a loner. She and another gal share an office in the back...an office, which I am supposed to be sharing with them. I have been taking it day by day knowing that I didn't want to go back there with them because you can feel the friction. Today I was asked to step outside with the 2 bosses and discuss what had happened. I was thinking to myself this really isn't happening is it?? They assured me everything was fine with me. I told them Carol didn't jump out and point blank say anyone was going to be mean that she was being nice asking if everything was going well. I did tell them I knew there was friction and that I was worried about joining them in the back. I am a very friendly person and I thought I may have trouble adjusting but would do whatever I needed to. The 2 bosses started putting out suggestions as to where I could be moved to other than that office. They really enjoy having me and want to make sure I am happy.

Isn't that just awful. Been there 1 week and 1 day and poop has hit the fan.

Tax Day

I had no idea....I thought I had a few more days. Luckily, I have already submitted my federal...now just have to do the state one. I guess this is one of the things, which I will be doing tonight.

Work is going okay. Sure wish I had more interesting and stimulating work to do...

UPDATE: I got my taxes done and paid for! Yes, I said PAID. I ALWAYS owe on my taxes and I am SICK of IT!!

Black and White

A meeting with the new girls...and I guess I am going to have to return some of the items I purchased in order to buy different uniform type clothing. This is okay with me really....So I am going to order 3 different black scrub jackets online today so that I can get my hospital discount. I am not allowed to wear the scrub pants. I decoded to go online and get some black and white polo shirts and wear those with the scrub jacket as an uniform. Make it easy on myself....I can wear jean skirts (WHEW!) but have to wear stockings (NO FREAKING WAY!) So I am going to purchase knee high socks. This dress code is going to take some getting used to but I am okay with it! I am so happy to be where I am!

So Far So Good

I am really tired and could fall asleep at any moment so if I nod off while writing, forgive me.

Things went well today. I got a lot done and had fun too. What really stinks is my first check will not be here until the 25th and it will only be for 3 days, then 2 weeks later (May 9th) I will get a full check. That is stinky!!

Everyone in the front office wears black and white. I don't know if that is a policy or if that is the colors..no one has told me yet and I don't want to know. I will continue to wear all the colors of the rainbow until otherwise told not to. I don't work in the front office but my manager wears black and white and she is over the front office and me.

First Day

It was a pretty good first day! I got a lot done and got to take a ride on the space shuttle....just kidding, the shuttle (bus) which goes between each of the hospitals and took a tour of the hospitals. I learned I can take the shuttle to eat lunch at the hospital and much more! I also learned that I get an hour for lunch!!! Everyone is nice and I am a happy girl so far!

Looks like I am off

TO WORK TOMORROW!! Hurray! I knew all my tests would come back okay, I just didn't know if all of the results would be in today or not! I am really looking forward to starting this new job!

Other news: I was really, really upset with my class, which I am taking and told the professor I was re-thinking my eduction plan. Something has happened, which I don't want to discuss but it seems the professor may have come around to my side. If this is the case, things could work out for me. More on this subject later!

Been A Good Week

I should hear today if all my blood work has come back to the hospital. I am not worried about the results because they will be okay...I am just waiting to hear if I get to work tomorrow or not. The doctor said it was pushing it to get the tests back by Tuesday afternoon. I have a little issue with that statement. My appointment was around noon on Friday. I had the blood work in the same hospital as to where the results need to go. So the lab had 1/2 day on Friday, all day Saturday, all day Sunday, all day Monday and all day Tuesday (until 4 p.m.). I know the lab doesn't close down on any of these days so what is the hold up? Maybe I am being unrealistic...I don't know. At any rate, it has been a good week. The sun has been shinning and the weather has been beautiful. If my test doesn't come back for another day than I am not going to be upset. I am just enjoying it with my niece. Everyone is off this week. The girls are on spring break and Paul took the week off too. I am excited to go back to work and be with nice people. It has been YEARS and I am looking forward to meeting and working with good people. I was told there was a total of 8 of us and 3 doctors. That is a nice little staff. (MGR) said they all work together and really take care of each other like family. It was important for them to pick the right person to fit in with them and they picked ME! I am so HAPPY so this is why I can't wait to start! For now, I am going to sign in to my class and do some homework. TTFN!

Stuffed and not just the monkeys

We went out for dinner tonight. I heard Maggie say she was starving but I really had no idea. She ordered a hot dog and applesauce. Before I knew it, she had eaten the entire hot dog! Then she ate 3 or 4 bites of her applesauce. She got to get a dessert and she picked (kids size) Oreo sundae. She ate almost 90% of that! We knew she had to be stuffed because this child NEVER eats! When we got in the car she asked if we could go walking somewhere because she was stuffed. We had to laugh at that and since we needed essentials, we went to Target and walked off our dinner.
She is very excited right now, in the dollar section we found monkey slippers and blanket. She is bouncing off the walls and just said she is enjoying her slippers and monkey blanket. She is a very funny girl.

Tests

Today I had to go and get my drug screen tests and blood tests done before I start on Wednesday of next week. I can't wait to start working again. It was really fun today when different people in different departments asked me where I was going to be working. When they heard, everyone had something good to say about someone who worked there. They were saying how nice so and so was and how giving doctor so and so was. To hear from different people who knew someone where I was going to be working and having only good things to say made me very happy to know I am going into a good place.

I need a drink and I don't drink

This class I am taking is not one of my favorites. I am working on team projects for the next few weeks and I am beginning to think I may need to start drinking. I don't know if everyone is trying to be nice so that no one gives them a bad grade or what. Several of the girls are like "okay, okay, okay"...give feedback people! What is going to happen is I am going to be labeled a dictator....and the only thing I am doing is giving suggestions and then ask for what other people thoughts are. "Okay, okay, okay is not an answer." The only guy on the team doesn't sign in but maybe 2 times a week and then gets ticked off and has strong suggestions for the team. I was voted team leader and another gal asked if we could dual share the role. I don't' want to be team leader every week....and she hasn't done anything to lead the group with me this week...she hasn't even posted her assignment like she was supposed to do. I think the team leader should rotate from week to week. I suggested this but no one commented. One person said they thought we were doing a good job at being team leaders. That wasn't what I asked. I asked and suggested ideas for coming up with how we should go about picking a new team leader each week. I don't think being a team leader means making all decisions. I think it means making sure each member stays on track or target with tasks determined and made by the group. Of course there are other things a leader should do but dictate is not one of them. I hope the team project goes smoother than it has this week because I don't know if I can deal with these people each week if it doesn't get easier. I don't want to be a dictator or labeled as such but I won't settle for a bad grade because of others not participating either.

Tuesday Blues

A friend and I were going to go on a rode trip to South Carolina. Her boss kept messing with her and wouldn't tell her if she could have 3 days off work. "We will talk about it later, we will talk about it at 11, we will talk about it after you get back from lunch..." After hearing all my friends struggles, I am feeling really sorry for her. I knew that her boss was a witch and controlling but really...come on...you know if you are going to give someone time off or not. The boss kept saying, "Are you sure your husband is going to let you go?" "How about your kids? Who is going to take care of them?...and on and on...I was like "IS IT NONE OF HER BUSINESS...My friend told me how controlling, among other things she was...but I guess I just didn't have any idea. My friend is looking for a new job (among everyone else in her office, to get AWAY of this boss). She is currently an administrative assistant but she has her CNA licence for Indiana. She is going to school for nursing too. She is very capable so if anyone know of a place hiring, she is needing a new job. She lives in Noblesville so a 20 mile radius of Noblesville would be awesome!

So I have the blues. I felt like a puppet on a string waiting to hear. I don't want to go on a trip that far without company so I won't be going either.

On a side note, I believe everything happens for a reason...so I am trying to stay open to knowing I wasn't supposed to be going at this time. It just stinks because it seemed like everything was going to work out and didn't.

How is your Tuesday?

Easter

Today is Easter day. Hope everyone is having a great day.

Are you egg-cited?

Have you gotten your eggs ready for the bunny yet?

I Quit!

Well, I did technically quit, but I did give notice. Since I am about to start St V's I quit the terrible, awful, hurt my head, neck, shoulders and back job. Today was my very last day there and I WILL NOT MISS IT! There is a new guy who has been there for about 3 days now. I heard him ask if it was okay to switch chairs as his back was hurting and he thought it was the chair. I wanted to say, "IT IS NOT THE CHAIR!", but I held my tongue. Soon enough he will know it to be true. I saw a girl diagonal from me, her name was Shannon and she was stretching and stretching her neck. I felt so bad for all the good and decent people who are working there. I hope they find something too. I was left to do the dirty job today. The worst job, at least in my opinion. I had to hold my head down all day...8 hours of looking down, putting checks together with invoices and then in alphabetical order. I think the manager was being mean on purpose. I never let up with my job duties. I fulfilled them with gust and the best I could, but it seems it wasn't good enough. The manager came up to me and told me I need to have all the checks sorted by noon. I just looked at her. It wasn't like I wasn't working the entire time or chit chatting or anything. I was sitting there doing my job as quickly as I could and she came up to me and said that. I just looked at her like she was a total loon. I think secretly she was mad I was leaving. The day I gave my notice, I heard the head boss tell her I was leaving and she said NO NOT HER. So I think she wasn't real happy I left. You know with all the training I had and all...(all one and a half minutes!)

This is the last post I will EVER post about this job!

NEW JOB FOR ME

I was offered and accepted a position at St. Vincent's today! I will be working at a pediatric orthopaedics group's office. There are only 3 doctors! I am very, very excited about this job!!!! Great benefits! I wish I was getting paid a heck of a lot more but it is a start and I am grateful and happy to have this job!!

Hurting

I can't believe how badly I feel! My shoulders, neck and back are a complete mess! It is because I SIT ALL FREAKING DAY now! I know there are other people in the same shape because I see them wiggle around too! The job just isn't healthy for any of us! I want out! I want a good job! I want one which will not HURT!

Is that sound coming from my head?

I forgot to tell you about that awful sound. The second day I was working there I asked the most friendliest person (Angie) if the sound I was hearing was coming from my head or if others could hear it too. She assured me that it was an awful sound and unfortunately everyone could hear it. She said when it turns off, everyone makes a sound of relief. It reminds me of a concentration camp for some reason...sometimes they will turn off the awful sound so that when it comes back on, you go crazy. The sound did go off yesterday and I was like "YES! That is much better!" Only to find in a short while the sound came back. Now, at home and anywhere I am, my ears are hearing sounds. I think I am picking up radio waves and other high pitched sounds and it is driving me insane!

I made it through the wilderness.....

Somehow I made it through...and survived what I can say one of the worst grueling work weeks ever. What I find amazing is I had Monday off, out for 2 hours on Wednesday for an interview and the out at 1:15 on Friday for an interview! How am I going to survive a 40 hour week? My neck, shoulders are a mess and my back feels like a board! I went walking last night even though all I wanted to do was lay down and sleep. Now, it is 1:30 a.m. and I can't sleep at all but I am exhausted!!! The worse part is my school studies. It is the last thing I want to do is read when I come home. I still have 2 chapters yet to read and a test to take by Saturday night!

The job interviews were awesome. Interviews were for a first and second interview at the same place this week....I was told my references would be called...I won't count my chickens before they are hatched but I sure want this job a great deal! It is something I could do and be good at as well as move up into other areas in the company....more on this after I am given an offer...and I mean more than a verbal offer!

Jack AWFUL Nasty

I am talking about the job.

I have never worked for a factory before but I think this is what it feels like. Yesterday the boss told me 10,000 units to be paid. I only had about 2 minutes training on the computer system so I am learning as I go on my own. There are 3 of us, and my brother figured out it would be about 8 seconds each transaction in order to do 10,000. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 .... seconds....No way in HELL! The computer DOESN'T go that fast! You have to look up each account in a database and it takes forever! Also, the computers CRASHED 3 times yesterday...that doesn't count how many times our computer screen FREEZES when we are in between screens. This is hell. I can't wait to get a full-time job so I can get out of this place.

Side note...I am happy to be working and having money coming in. So don't think I am ungrateful. I just can't understand the environment and everyone is so UNHAPPY! You think??

Lots to discuss but oh so tired!

First day on the job and my eyes are killing me! So is my neck. I had to look down and sort invoices/checks all day. Then I had to come home and do homework. Good news about school...I had an assignment due and had to do several days of discussion last week and got 49 out of 50 and 50 out of 50 for each! Can't beat that with a stick. Hope I can continue. Tonight I had about an hour of work to do and being on the computer is the last thing I want to do but had to do it. I still have 2 chapters to read (25 pages for each chapter), a discussion to do and a quiz to take! H E L P!

Work was weird. There are many desks in one big room, yet no ones know each others names. More later....I only slept about 4 hours last night so I am tired and it is time for BED!

job

I have a job starting tomorrow. I will be working for a temp agency. The weird news is that is at where Paul and 80 of his friends were laid off several years ago. I am really happy to be employed, even though I don't know for how long. I will keep looking and interviewing and actually have 2 new interviews this week ... but the company will work around me interviewing! That is good news. The bad news is me and my friend will no longer be able to have breakfast and a movie during working hours now. That is a bummer!

Daylight Saving Time

Really dislike changing the clocks and losing an hour. Feels like someone has taken something from me...and this something is not replaceable...time. Okay, I understand the give and take of the hour...I just don't like getting up and finding it is an hour later than what I had thought even though I knew it was coming. I read online that it doesn't save $$ as the politicians told us it would. Go figure. Politician lied...who would have thought?

On another note, I had the worse headache I have had in a long time yesterday. When I say yesterday, I mean Y E S T E R D A Y and I mean ALL DAY!! I fell asleep upstairs in a chair several times then when downstairs to the theatre room but kept being woke up. I finally had enough and went to bed at 11:30. I haven't been going to bed until after midnight or ever 2, 3 o'clock in the morning...(side note...I still wake up before 8 a.m.!!!) but I couldn't take it any more. BOY did I have dreams! I don't remember much of the dreams but I remember dreaming. Feeling better today but still feel a little like a headache could pop up anytime. My neck and shoulders hurt really bad. I think the headache is from stress in those areas.

Oh No Say It Isn't So

All I hear is negative, negative, negative with politics. My question remains...if everyone is so unhappy with the way things are going and they are excited about the "new change", which is coming then why is everyone afraid of what is coming? I am out of a job and my brothers company just laid off another batch of 30 something people. If everyone is so unhappy with the way things are, and want a change and know change is coming then why are they so afraid? I was told people are afraid to spend money right now, which causes a recession because they are afraid of what is coming....but if they are unhappy now and they want the change, then why be so freaking afraid of it? More than likely I am not communicating what I am thinking very well because it makes me so mad I have a hard time spitting out what I want to say...so forgive my ranting.

I went and helped the economy today. My friend Judy and I met up with a couple friends and we ate at Gray's Cafeteria. YUMMY! Had some good ole' fried chicken! I normally eat chicken, corn and mashed potatoes (starch, starch, starch) and then go into a food comma but decided today to forgo the corn. It just wasn't the same but I didn't miss the comma one bit!

I am still looking for a job! I applied for over 10 positions within the last 2 days. I hope the job postings keep coming so that I have jobs to apply for! I am PRAYING AND PRAYING something comes soon!

Bad Job Hunting

Yesterday I only found one job and today I only found one job to apply for. I am not totally sure these are jobs I want to do but believe I should search them out any way. You never know. I am just disappointed in finding so few available. Something will come my way, I know it. I just wish it was on my terms and not the terms of the universe.

No Student Left Behind? I am with stupid!

After going through my orientation for school today, I can see where many, many and I mean many people have been left behind academically. People were NOT paying attention. They were asking the same questions over and over and over and I just couldn't believe it. How in the world do these people even find their way out of their bed and blankets each day? Is this really how the world is? Is the world really raising ignorant and spoiled children who are this stupid? I have heard it many times and I have seen it a few times but it slapped me in the face today. I am not saying teachers aren't teaching..or trying to teach...I am saying maybe many of these students just aren't learning....something is definitely WRONG with society!

Friends in the wrong places?

I didn't hear from my friend about the accounting job today. *Sigh*

I got friends in the right places

I am not getting my hopes up, okay so I am getting them up...I have a friend who is in human resources and they have an accounting postion open. She is going to get the information and call me tomorrow (Friday). The company is in Carmel and located less than 15 minutes from my home. She LOVES her job and the people she is working for are really nice.

Everyone please send some prayers up for me, if you please...I need all the help I can get.

Bitter is the new me

Well, not exactly bitter...Remember the book "Bitter is the new black?" I know most of us have read this hilarious book and I can now relate to this gal's struggles. For those of you who haven't read the book, it is about a woman who loses her job and finds her self over qualified for everything she applies for. It takes her awhile but she realizes her life has changed and she can no longer afford the luxuries she once thought were necessities. I am right there with this gal. One of the things which keeps me going, unlike her, is knowing that I won't lose my home because of this. I am luckily enough to have loving family to love and support me and wouldn't see me living in my car and/or street.

Why am I writing this?? Well, I contacted Clarian and was told the manager decided to go in a different direction. I said, "I was told I had a verbal offer and a formal offer would be forthcoming..." She said,..."Yes, and your references came back fine.., however the manager decided to go a different direction." WHAT? I was speechless. What happened? I emailed a friend of mine and she wrote this to me:

I do have Family that is working for Clarion. I can understand what they are doing and that is all of a sudden they are looking at all depts and programs and deciding to cut back and not fill postions that they have. My neice and her boss are doing that right now and adding the work to other people job descriptions.

Back to the drawing board for me.

Temp and Clarian

The temp agency called and wants to send me on another interview...this job is in Westfield. I am really, really tired of interviewing. She said they only want to pay $13 an hour but she wants to go in at $15 an hour. This is what she has done for the last 2 interviews I went to. If they only wanted to pay $10, she went in at $12 or $13 for me...if they only wanted to pay $15 she asked for $17 for me but she goes in with the other candidates for the price they want to pay. I thank her for wanting me to make more but I am not getting the jobs. You see, the agency normally sends 2 or 3 resumes over with pricing. We all get interviews but since my price is always higher than everyone else, I don't get the job especially if we are all qualified and they wouldn't send someone over who wasn't qualified! I am a good at interviewing. I open up and I can get along and answer questions like a pro. I know what employers are wanting people to say. I know how to answer and would win an academy award if it came right down to it. The agency always sends feedback and it is always the same..."They really liked you...they thought you were very personable and pleasant but choose the other candidate"...So I don't think the temp agency should go in at a higher price than what they want the employer wants to pay OR if she should send all the resumes over for the same HIGHER price and see what happens.

I haven't heard from Clarian yet and today I didn't have a very good day because I am getting worried about it. I have really been going with the flow and not getting upset or uptight but I was a little down today. I don't like this feeling! I hope to have a job offer this week!

Me and You and Everyone We Know

Me and You and Everyone We Know----This is a very weird movie but I enjoyed it! I love poetic and artsy films...something out of the ordinary and not expected. I watched this movie today.

I got a call from Clarian Health today. They need one more reference so I gave them two more to contact. I can't wait to see where I am going to be working and what I am going to do and when! How about how much I am going to be paid? That is important too! This waiting is a killer....

It's been a birthday weekend!

Today was my mothers birthday...and as my friend Laurie would say..."She turned 30/31"...(add together to get age). In my family, the birthday person gets to pick where they want to go to eat to celebrate. By looking at the pictures can you guess what South side restaurant we went to? It is a top 10 restaurant for Indy. They say the cows give the name and location away.

The food was FAB! If you ordered from the dinner menu they start you out with homemade onion soup! I have never been a big fan of onion soup until I had it at my cousin Karen's house. She made from scratch and it was the best...this is a close second (or third) so I have to say it was pretty darn good! Then after soup is finished, they serve a very nice salad! It had lots of veggies and was very good too. I order a steak! I could have cut it with my spoon and I even ordered it medium well...so you know it had to be good! The dinner also came with bread and a choice of side. Lots of goodies to eat at this reaturant! In fact, I may want to choose it for my special day! Good choice mom!

On a side note...on the way to my parents home, Maggie told me she wished she could go ice skating because she had "moves". You see, we watched Ice Princess on Disney the other night and afterwards she got up and danced and twirlled. Daddy told her she had some great moves. One of the cutest moves is when she tries to jump and spin in the air with her hands above her head! Love it!

Cute things from yesterday

I gave my friend Becky yesterday a pair of ear rings and a bracelet I had made. I wasn't sure if she would like the bracelet so I brought an alternative for her to choose from. As we were sitting there, she stated I should sell the jewelry I was making and I explained I was only doing it for myself and to give as gifts. She kept pushing and pushing asking how much I would charge for a bracelet and I finally asked her why and she said she wanted to buy the other bracelet I had brought. I asked her if it was for herself and she said of course it was. She wanted both bracelets. I told her she could have them both at no charge...I wasn't going to sell jewelry. She was so excited and giggled. I told her I would have to cut down the length of the other bracelet down as it was a 7 1/2 length and she wears a 6 1/2. (The first bracelet I had made smaller.) So she was very excited and then her face lit up and she asked..."With the extra pieces you are cutting down from the bracelet, could you then make me ear rings?" Thanks for asking Becky! I would love to make you more! This made me feel good to know she really did like what I had given her.

Last night Uncle Daniel and Grandma French came over. Maggie gets SO excited when Uncle Daniel comes over. While we were sitting at the table, I asked Maggie..."What does Uncle Daniel have that I don't? Why don't you like me as much as you like him?"

Her response....

"Auntie, I like you both the same!" (That was a brilliant response for a 6 year old!)

Oh Maggie, could I love you any more?

Birthday

Today is my oldest and one of my dearest friends birthday. Becky Werhle and I have been friends since kindergarden and have remain friends during all those years. We were fortunate enough to live in the same area the entire time we were growing up, which allowed us to stay at the same school district. Ater school, and even though we were living on opposite sides of the city, we made an effort to see each other every few months. It is really amazing to have a bond with someone, which is so deep. I know all about her and her family (not just her husband and kids...but her sisters and brothers and nieces and nephews too!) and she knows all about mine. Even in all the crazy filled days of our lives, we are there for each other and never judge. It is such a wonderful feeling!

Here is to you Becky! Happy 42nd Birthday! May you have many, many blessed more!

Who wants to go with me?

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New Job Offer and School

2 things happened today...

#1...I have a pending job offer from Clarian Health. Where the job is located I am not sure. I sure hope it is at Clarian North and NOT Methodist, IU or Riley (Downtown)...Why do I say pending? Clarian has to call my references. I hope I put some good ones down. To bad I don't remember who I listed so I could bribe them. (HAHA...just kidding) After my references are called a formal offer will be sent to me.

#2...I offically start my accounting degree on March 3rd. I am going to attend DeVry University located here in Indianapolis.

I still have still have an interview to go to tomorrow. It will be the 3rd and final interview. Stay tuned.

Today's Interview

I am becoming a professional interview person! I had another interview today. I don't want to jinx myself..so I am not going to say much about it. The guy said I was over qualified...but he said everyone was over qualified in the positions they were in right now...this new job is a start up company but isn't a start up company...A larger company owns it...hard for me to explain so I won't right now. It is currently in Fishers, on 96th Street but will be moved to 75th and Shadeland in about a month.

I was called back for a 3rd interview for Thursday for a different position. OMG 3rd interview....

That is it for now.

MONDAY

What am I doing right now? Listening and watching Maggie play Guitar Hero. Every time she plays, she gets better and better. I just love watching her. It is the cutest thing to see her play. She gets over 70 something percent of the song and normally can do a 50 play streak...pretty good for being 6...especially since her little hands don't go around the neck of the guitar and she plays the guitar backwards to accomidate!

This morning when I got up Maggie asked me if I wanted her to fix me breakfast. "I know how" she what she said. She first asked me if I wanted toast. I asked her how she would fix it and she said she would put it in the toast and let it get black. Very cute! She mentioned a couple other things she could make...I decided to just drink my water.

I am hoping to hear back from one of the many interviews I had last week, today or tomorrow. I am ready to go back to work and make some money!

Dummy It Up?

I recieved the call from this morning's interview. While I was in their top 5, they decided only to send the top 3 downtown for a second interview...blah blah heard it all before. He said the reason why I wasn't chosen was because he and the HR Mgr didn't believe I would be happy in one job...doing it day in and day out...every day. Blah blah...he is right...I wouldn't have been happy but it would at least paid the bills. I NEVER say anything like this but they can see from my resume, I have done lots of things...So, I can understand their throught process...don't want to hire someone to stay for a few months then move on. Bad for business....so now I wonder if the jobs I applied for at the hospital is going to come back the same exact way. I am really thinking I should dummy down myself and my resume. I just don't know what to do or think. I am not depressed over the situation, just tired of interviewing....ya know?

Also, another reason this job this morning wasn't great for me is because they don't offer tution assistance for additional schooling...I don't want to make pennies for the rest of my life so I wanted to go back into the medical field so that they would help pay...

NEXT!

Last Interview For The Week

It went well...they had over 200 people apply for the job...the one and only job they have open. They called in 20 for interviews and I was one of the 20. I was amazed and excited I got the opportunity to interview. They will pick a couple people from the 20 and send them downtown to do a second interview on Monday. Second interivews drive me crazy and yet again, I would have to drive downtown Indy.

So I sit and I wait.

It's 4:27 AM

I
can
not
sleep.

Nursing Baby