Monday, Sept 1

My goal today is that I am working on not being so depressed. Nothing more than that and that is a lot.

Totally Funny

So last night, Maggie was still going on about me not being able to remember how to spell the word OF. She thinks that is so funny! One thing led to another and I had mentioned that I needed to get up and go to the bathroom. The next thing I knew, she had handwritten me a note....She handed it to me and I read it:

"Need to go poop"

We laughed and laughed because I think, even if my mind is elsewhere...I surely think I could remember to do that if I needed to!

She is a funny girl!

Losing It

Yesterday I forgot my password to get into the computer at work. I totally locked myself out and had to have the help desk unlock me and then change it. Today, I had to email Anthem for a precert and forgot my password. I locked myself out after 3 times and they sent me my memory word so that I could recover it. The problem was I couldn't remember what the memory word meant. The word I chose was "music". After they reset my passcode I remember it! DUH! Tonight I was playing hangman with niece and SIL and forgot how to spell the word OF! My niece thought it was funny since she knew how to spell it. I am afraid I am losing my mind. LOL!

Bad night

Last night I was lost and confused! Why? I forgot my Sudoku book at work! (LOL!) I was sure to remember it tonight and have already started playing it again.

Work is weird...everyone is coming to me for help and telling me their troubles. I have enough of my own thank you....but it is a core value at my job so I bite the bullet.

Today one of the gals who used to work in the front office came back for a visit. It was really, really tense. I felt very weird!

Crazy for sudoku

I had a birthday lunch celebration with my friend Luci on Saturday. She introduced me to her love of sukoku and my OCD has kicked in. Not that I have or have ever been diagnosed with OCD but it sure feels like I have it sometimes! Anyway, we had lunch on Saturday and she gave me a sample of the game so I went to Target that evening and purchased a book for myself. I really enjoy the game. I will probably end up seeing numbers in my sleep. Wouldn't it be fantastic if the numbers were ones which won the lottery? Just to bad I don't play...

Stinkin

This morning I was greeted from Maggie asking me why I wore what I wore to work every day. I wear a uniform is what I told her. She said you wear the same one every day? I said not the same one, I have 5 pairs of pants and different shirts. She replied with..."I was just thinkin, if you wore the same clothes everyday you sure would be a stinkin".

I just love her mind!

Friday Wow's

Friday night I stayed late at work so I could go out with new friend Amanda. She and I went to a store and eyed a few items, which we could not yet purchase and then walked over to a nice and clean pub afterwards. We ate and talked and talked. It was just a nice way to end a long week. I don't know if it was because I had 3 cokes or if it was because I was out in the night (something I never do!) but I felt like a wild teenager! We didn't leave the place until almost ten o'clock. I am normally at home at this time. Imagine my surprise when I saw all the crazies out and about too! I was shocked at how people dress and was amazed there were so many out that late. I became alarmed at how old I am getting.

Chuckle

Last evening Maggie had a scarf around her neck, which make it look like a cape on her back. With one sock on and one off Mommy asks "Maggie, why do you only have one sock on?" Her response, "I would much rather wear one because two does not please me now good bye and good day." And off with the wind she went with her scraf cape flying.

Early Monday Morning Blues

I can't wait to get home tonight so I can go back to sleep. (I wonder if a certain little one will allow this of me?)

It's going to be a long day folks!

Goodies

I got some really good stuff for my birthday this year! To bad I can't upload my pictures so you could see them..... :(

One of the best gifts I could EVER have gotten was a call from family. I was told Maggie really was missing me. This made my day and possibly my week! I will think about how I felt hearing she missed me for a long time. It was the best feeling and gift I think I got!...and I got some good stuff!

I want to get my girlie's out and about for dinner in the next week or two. Anyone up for it? Sex and the City is now playing at the cheap movie place on 86th Street too....

Crazy times

You wouldn't even believe what has happened during families vacation!! One day the water heater went OUT and I had to take cold showers for 2 days until it was installed (my parents came up and waited on the people to install it so I didn't have to miss work!) Also....the sump pump went out because of the storm so the water came up into the basement and the alarm was going off! I had to find someone to come in and look/fix that! CRAZY stuff this week!

They really do like me!

Today I was given a surprise luncheon by everyone at work for my birthday. This was a surprise because I had NO idea! I got a beautiful box full of goodies and another box full of charms and things plus a friend/coworker took me out to dinner. I was surprised at the turn out for food for lunch! You never know who your friends are since there is SO MUCH back stabbing and talk but I guess they really do like me! I actually felt like they did! This made me feel better about things at work. I can tell you...there have been other going away luncheons and other types of gatherings and many people DID NOT participate. The doctor even brought food trays for me. I felt that with the turn out that maybe, they really do like me!

Ahh...much better

Tonight found me in better spirits. I went out with 3 of my bestest friends and we celebrated my birthday. I got some great gifts and had a great dinner at one of my favorite places. When I arrived home my niece had picked a gift out for me with her Daddy (my brother) and she not only decorated the package, she made me a card. She immediately began opening the gift and I was most delighted to find a lighted waterfall. Daddy said she hand picked it out. The only down fall was that she sure wished there were 2 so she could have one too. After looking at the water fall (and lights, which changes color on the glass) I then got to watch one of her movies with her. Don't feel sorry for me...I LOVE spending time with her and LOVE that she wants me to watch her movies WITH her so I don't mind a bit! Anyway afterwards we had to sit in the dark and watch the water fall again. Next, she suggested, that we take the water fall upstairs to her room. She wanted me to put the water fall in her room for the night since she was leaving for vacation tomorrow and wouldn't have a chance to look at it for awhile. Hummm....what do you think this means? Wonder if the water fall will ever make it back to me? I can assure you, I do not care! I love the fact that she loves it and would glady let her have it if parental units agree....I love her and love seeing the joy the water fall gives her so that is such a gift and enough for me. She makes my life so worth living...

Work and a bad hair day

It is SO hot in my office! I hate how hot it is! Another complaint I have is I have a stack of work and I need help. If you are sitting playing on the computer at work and see another person who is working and working and having to stay late...would you ask them if they could help you? We all get paid the same $12 bucks an hour....it wouldn't hurt you anyway to get off your you know what and help....frustrating! How many times do I have to ask for help before it is given to me without having to ask for it? Teamwork is missing! I am sad and depressed. The biggest issue is we deal with children all day and in the summer, kids get hurt and this causes my duties to rise about 150%...okay, off my soap box now. Deep breathe in and out.

Hope everyone else in the world has had a good day! The night should end on a positive note as I am going out for my birthday with my girl friends! Looking forward to that!

Not as good as yesterday....but still no Sybil

Sybil has left the building...at least for the time being. I did see her raise her ugly head a tiny bit twice today but she quickly faded away. Pretty soon she will have a different job in another part of my building so I won't have to "deal" with her much...just wish it was sooner rather than later....Her daughter brought in her 3year old grandson today...Sybil LOVES her grandson so I did what any person who is trying to buy points would do, I purchased a Spiderman coloring book for him. (It is his FAVORITE!) He was so excited. I was hoping to buy some points from Sybil thinking she wouldn't be mean to me today. It did work for today. I am not sure what I will have to buy her tomorrow. Go away Sybil, please don't come back.

Work was pretty overwhelming to me today. I have SO MUCH work to do! Since I have to precert any surgeries and tests and get referrals for all office visits and this is the busiest time of the year, I have a stack and I mean a STACK of them to do. I do 3 or 4 and I get 7 or 8 more. It's depressing. This will continue until December I am told. I do that plus all the other stuff I do daily and there isn't enough time in the day! I just "get done" what I have to and push everything else aside. I don't like working like that.

WONDERFUL DAY!!

Man! 24 hours later and look what happens! Sybil came in and was kind and fun all day long!

So....Sybil got 5 prescriptions! One being a NEW anti-depressant and another one for cramps! Can I get an AMEN?

Sybil and I also talked out a few issues...Yesterday, Sybil ran to the administrator and said the temp said I said blah blah blah about her. The administrator said..."Sybil, this is a very good lesson for you....it wasn't Auntie who said those things in the office about you it was coworker # 1 and I should know as I was there when it was said." So this morning while we were alone as we were talking I said to Sybil...."Sybil, have you ever heard me say ANYTHING negative about any of our coworkers?" And she said "no, I never have...." ..........That is the way it will stay too because I can go home and blog about you and tell all my friends about you Sybil...I don't have to say things to coworkers as I have plenty of people and the world wide web to talk to! (smiles!)

Everyone got along great today. It was such a nice relaxing change!

Please Sybil, go away and don't come back another day!

Stressful work

Why can't everyone just play nice and be nice to each other?? I guess one of the reasons is because we have a psycho working with us. Sybil...we never know who she is going to be from one moment to the next. The good news is that she went to her doctor today and hopefully she will get on some different meds. She is messed up! I have to feel sorry for her but at the time time, I need to protect myself from her crazy self. Today she asked the boss if I were her boss?!?! I have NEVER EVER even acted like her boss...EVER! Normally I don't talk to her much and just do my thing. Today I did say, "Hey, I have a suggestion...and it is just a suggestion so perhaps you guys won't agree but what if we have one of the new girls sit at the front desk. Let her actually run the desk because the girl who normally does it is going to be out for awhile and it would be good for one of them to get the hang of it while there is still help here...." I then said it was really none of my business but thought I would bring it up. I actually said..."It was none of my business"...... That was pretty much WORD FOR WORD what I said...Does this sound like I am the boss?? UGH! When the administrator told me this I immediately asked her if I was to bossy..and she said NO not at all. (I can tell you that is very hard for me to NOT be bossy at times but I normally turn around at my desk when I think I might become bossy!! It is very hard for me to so I do make an effort to to it!) Anyway administrator also said Sybil was probably picking up on the fact that she gives me administrative types of duties like the office manager used to do and was just curious if I was taking that role. I don't know if I can work with Sybil and be her boss...it would be hard because I would be writing her up left and right for bad attitude and how she talks down to patients and coworkers! It ain't pretty!

We have a new guy at work...I asked him in front of the practice administrator if he thought he could handle caddy women. He laughed and said he was used to it from the practice he came from before. I think he is going to get a big kick out of working with us! I hope he can stand all the talk!

That is pretty much been my last 2 days! Fun time in the big city!

Yesterday and Today

Last evening I found myself at a friends house eating s'mores round their fire pit. Can I say how much fun that is and was! I was feeling pretty good about my health too and had a drink. Perhaps that is why I was feeling good and slept well. Today, was another day...I was not feeling my best but went to work anyway. I guess I should have had a shot of rum before, during and after work in order for me to feel good. It is weird to drink as I don't consider myself a drinker...less than 10 drinks a year and usually a fruity drink, which doesn't carry enough alcohol in it to make a fly drunk. Anyway, I was so TIRED when I got home I went straight to bed. I got up for about an hour to spend time with my wonderful family, got re medicated and now going back to bed. Tomorrow is a new day....hopefully I will find it without a sinus/cold infection.

Allergies causing sinus infection??

I am sick. Had a pretty bad night of it. Starting taking drugs right off the bat on Friday and the Mucinex started last night when I woke up choking. I just hope I can nip this in the bud before having to go to a doctor.

Is it hot outside? I wouldn't know for sure. I did want to go and help Luci take down things at her house today...that really was my plan but I want to be well sooner rather than later. I feel I may push back my healing process if I over do it. I can't afforad to be off work.

Not much new to say or tell today. Just trying to heal. Hope everyone is having a good restful Sunday.

For the love of...a heat stroke!

Miserable...miserable...miserablely HOT HOT HOT!!! It was so miserably HOT! There were guest who passed out. The tent was so hot...people were not moving an inch and was sweating through their clothes! It was a good thing I got my hair cut off or I would have shaved it off during the ceremony. Repeat...DURING THE CEREMONY! On a positive note, my makeup held up really well. The not so good news...I took off way to early! BEFORE the CAKE WAS CUT! I couldn't find the bride or groom to say goodbye so I said my goodbyes to others who I knew. It was either leave or pass out and I didn't want to pass out. My head was throbbing so I knew I had to get out of there! I was about 5 minutes from home when I was called from Luci's mobile so I guess she figured out that I left....without saying goodbye....but I couldn't find her. I didn't answer the call either...just didn't feel like I could talk and drive at the same time I guess. I am WIPED out and plan on going to bed the minute I get off the computer!

On the way home, I heard on the radio a DJ said.."Call in on Monday morning and finish this sentence". "I will never (fill in the blank)."

So hear goes mine...

I will NEVER....go to, help plan or have an outdoor wedding during the middle of July!

Your turn to play!