Friday, January 20, 2006

Teen Star Gone Bad



I was scanning the news tonight when I found a story about a guy going into rehab. The name sounded very familiar to me so I googled him. WOW was I surprised! The picture of the man they had shown in the news article wasn't at all anything like I remembered. He was originally a former teen beat favorite and I had a poster of him in my bedroom when I was young. I remember then I used to have this young man's 8 track tape and it made me laugh because it reminded me of how old I am. Then I wondered what the heck happened to him? He looks like he has been beaten and been through hell and back. I guess drugs will do that to a person.

I hope all my prescription drugs don't make me look like that in a few years. I will be really mad because I spent a lot of money on cosmetics and personal hygiene products.

So Tired


Today I was late for work! I have been working late this week and found myself dead dog tired this week...I didn't wake up until 1/2 hour after I was supposed to be at work! I didn't hear my alarm and I didn't hear the two calls my phone received before 8 a.m. When I woke up it was completely day light. I was freaked! I just can't wait for the weekend. I am hoping I will get some rest and relaxation! Here is hoping!!!

Thursday, January 19, 2006

One Problem



One of the issues with firing employee is that I have to have a replacement. I haven't found the right person yet. Certainly not the red neck girl. I have been told to fire and hire. GET ER DONE! I am working on it!!

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Interview, Job Offer and Firing


The redneck interviewed with the owner and he said, "I don't think she is a good fit". "Why?" I asked and he told me. His thoughts were the same as my thoughts...scarey.

Speaking of interviews...I had a job offer today. Fell from the sky. I am not looking but it was nice to hear. I always tell the owner too when it happens...Which is about 2 times a year. I have to keep his memory sharp and open to the possibility that others want me...Just in case he forgets what he has in me. (Lots of laughs!)

I have to fire another employee by end of February. I was told to get it done. This person is not working out. Owner wants this person terminated. I have to do it and I know it isn't going to be pretty. I have to call the police department to have them around the area the day I do it. I just can't wait.

Friday, January 13, 2006

Revenge is SWEEEEETTT!!


I am a very bad girl.

First I should explain about the owner of my company. He is a very busy man.

Today he overstepped a decision I had made and needless to say, I was pissed. So I am taking revenge.

I interviewed a red neck girl who was referred to me. This red neck girl was nice enough but she "ain't got no problems other than her ex stalking her, destroying her home, cutting phone lines and just plain won't leave her be". Also, she had to quit her last job because he was causing troubles for her there. She spoke about her ex the entire time she was in my office. She has no hobbies or anything to speak of...Only her ex and she wants this job so she can run from him so he can't find her and their 2 children. Oh, and she would have to be off one day this month because she is taking him to court and "hopefully the law will put him away for good this time". Okay, can you say excess baggage?

There is no way I would hire this girl...But...Since she was referred to me by someone the owner knows...And I am pissed...I passed her to the owner for consideration and an interview. When I called her today she literally screamed "SWEEEEETTT!!!" on the phone when I asked her to come in on Monday for a second interview.

I am so bad....And I sure hope Karma doesn't bite me on this one....

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

It is Judy's fault

Thanks to Judy I have some lovely new stamps coming in from Stampin Up! I need more stamps like Stephanie needs paper...*ha ha*...Okay, so I need to make something with the stamp set(s) which I bought. Hum. Think, Think, Think. I think I got it! I think I will send Judy a card that say's "Thanks Judy for feeding my addiction!" I just love friends who care.

(Smiles Judy and Stephanie!)

PRAYER ANSWERED!

Now I would not call myself "religious" but I would 100% say I am a spiritual person...My life coach yesterday told me to start looking for God in what I do. He wasn't aware that I was looking for this paper..He just wanted me to concentrate on the good, which happens in my life..Today was a HELL DAY! It seems any time I am off, even for a few short hours...Work falls apart. Now, I am not just saying this to pat myself on the back because owner actually said it today too...And it is true. I guess I am the glue which holds this company together...Anyway, back to my story...I was quite upset because I can certainly tell everyone that I didn't see him much of God's hands in anything at all today. But tonight...MY PRAYER HAS BEEN ANSWERED! I found that paperwork I have been so desperately been looking for. I jumped up and down and shouted "God has shown himself to me!"

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

HELP!


I desperately need prayers. I have lost some extremely important papers and I have to find them quickly!!!!!

Saturday, January 07, 2006

I am hiding my head under the sink

Went to the knitting store and teacher got me back where I needed to be. So I was off and running like a pro with my scarf. My next count I had 1 to many, the next count I had 2 to many. I started to sweat so I decided to see if I could fix. My next count I had 4 to many. So I thought keep going see if you can fix it. Now I have 6 or more to many...I think I will go put my head under the kitchen sink and hide for awhile.

Friday, January 06, 2006

Upsetting News


1. I deleted a large file I had created with part numbers for a large customer. This was a file I used personally almost every day, but now I have to start back to square one and rebuild the Access file.

2. One of my employees who has recently been written up for attendance had her boyfriend call her in sick today. I am not saying she wasn't sick, it is the fact that she had her boyfriend call her in after she was already on probation. I don't know if this means I have to fire her or not. I am very upset about having to fire her. What about the FMLA? I am waiting to hear about the regulations I must follow.

3. The scarf I was knitting looks like crap. I did something to the stitches and I don't know how to fix it. I am at a loss as to what to do with the scarf at this point. I am extremely depressed.

4. I have to work on a Saturday. I know, millions of people do but it really sucks to put in over 40 hours this week and have to go in. Did I mention I don't get paid to work extra?

That is it for now. I am tired of typing all the bad. I have lots of good things which happened today but I am choosing to post only the negative. Bah Hum Bug...

Thursday, January 05, 2006

I would have been mad at me

The owner of the company was looking and looking and looking....no kidding...for some paperwork on a client, which he swore he placed on my desk. Well, I had NONE of that! I actually cleaned my desk up (first time in about a year) and I was like, "No, I don't think so..." (Note: I didn't really say this but it was in my head swimming around.) So we looked on everyone's desk. We looked in his office. We looked in all the filing cabinets but no luck. I was just sure we would have found it amongst his things...low and behold....I had them on top of my desk the entire time. I would have been so mad at me if I were him and he didn't seem mad at all...I went in and said, "I am so sorry. I had the paperwork the entire time. I am so very sorry." He forgave me and that was that.

Note to self: Remember not to be so hard on the dear old man the next time he does something which chaps my ass.

On another note...I went to my first knitting class tonight. It was a bit stressful for me since I am an A type individual who is extremely hard on anything creative I do....but I have all week to practice and the teacher told me if I had any problems to come in and someone would help me. I told her I would hold her to that! Will post pictures as I go later!!

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Micro Management

I came in early today to get a heads start at work. Guess what I came into? The owner of the company re-organized my desk! Why? Why? I get SO ANGRY at him for doing things like this. He is such a micromanager and it drives me to want to drink...Something more than coke! If you were to see his office you would think, why in the world would he be doing this little task and not bother with his own! I have a few ideas...His world is so crazy and life such a mess that he doesn't want to take the time to do his own work. So he goes through each of our desk here at the office so that he doesn't have to do his own. Maybe he doesn't know where to began with his own...I don't know. I know, however that it pisses me off to come in to have to re-organize my own work before I can even began to start. It takes so much time and energy.

I am so happy to be back to work today. Can't you tell?

Monday, January 02, 2006

Long Weekend Over


Not much to say about having to go back to work...Other than I am glad I have a job to go to. I guess I need to be happy that I have a job to go to even though it stinks.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Time For Changes

This year I am planning on changing one thing a month. My goal is to do SOMETHING different every month. I am going to do something creative to nurish my soul. I am going to stop a negative thought in my head before it gets out of control. I am going to clean out my desk at work. (This might freak out the owner..ha ha) I think if at the end of 2006, I can look back and see the changes I made, I will feel better about how I spent my time here on earth. Also, what a great feeling to know I had accomplished xy and z this past year.

Here is to us! My wish for everyone is happiness, peace and health!

Saturday, December 31, 2005

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Craft for the New Year


I have always wanted to learn how to knit. My mother taught herself. My aunts and cousins knitted but I never learned. My mother tried to teach me and but nothing ever come of the dreaded chain. I didn't have the patience to go any further. I hope I have learned patience and will learn much more since I am paying someone to teach me because today, I drove myself down to a place called Stitches & Scones. This business is no more than 5 minutes away from my house and I gave them my $45 to learn the basics. My first official lesson is on Thursday. I hope I get to knit a scarf! I have always wanted to knit a scarf! Here is wishing I have a nice new scarf to wear before the heat over takes the earth in my little piece of the world. Wish me luck!

Friday, December 30, 2005

When I Grow Up


I just came to realize this morning (at almost 40 years old) what I want to be when I grow up. (It is about time don't you think??) Anyway, I want to be a Carmel Housewife. I am sure every state has what we call an area where there are "Carmel Housewives"...It is a woman who lives in luxury and is allowed to do whatever she pleases. She can sleep all day, while the maid cleans up the house. She can shop all day, while her husband earns the dough. She can go get a manicure, pedicure, hair done, massage or whatever she feels like whenever she wants to. (Wait, that last one does sound like me...) Anyway, after taking today off and having to take calls from work anyway, I decided my goal is to become a Carmel Housewife. I don't care that others will make fun of me for being one. I can handle the jokes and the criticism because I am a strong woman and I could turn the other cheek (while my facial was being completed). I just want to do what I want to do without having to answer to anyone except myself and of course "big daddy". (big daddy = GOD) I would even start becoming more of a leader in my community...I have it in me to do so. I just can't find the time to do it all. I know there are those who seem to find the time, (damn them) but it is difficult for me...(As I do have to have time for all those massages and facials...ha!)

The point is I have finally found a purpose and I am sure my high school guidance councilor would finally be happy that I have found something to aspire to be...So when I grow up, I want to be a Carmel Housewife. How about you?

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Wrong Butt Being Kissed


The cleaning crew in my building is now bowing to me. (LITTERALLY BOWING!) I had a Korean person I knew ask me if my building would be interested in quoting out its cleaning? I asked the building manager and he said yes, so I go the 2 parties hooked up. This crew got the job. Now after a few weeks of cleaning, people who work in my building are complaining about the job they are doing. There is a communication problem with the Korean workers and the military (my building is 98% US government military personal). I have also spoken to the building manager regarding our bathrooms being a mess and he has told me he had left word for the crew but nothing got resolved. Last Friday, the owner of my company saw one of the cleaning crew managers and told him we had issues...And that I would have a talk with him next week. WHY ME? Do I NOT HAVE ENOUGH issues to deal with?? I told the owner of my company that it is not my responsibility to have to deal with the cleaning people. I am NOT in charge of the building...Why do I have to speak with them?? He didn't see it this way...So,today I had one of the Korean owners come in and asked me not to be mad at him and he bowed. I was like "what?" I am not mad at anyone. Then I had the manager of the cleaning crew (Korean also) come in and bow at me. Okay, now I have to say, I like men bowing at my feet... but not for this reason....NEXT, I have a Korean woman call me and on and on she went how sorry and how thankful...I wanted to say, "You are kissing the wrong butt here!" Guess what, the cleaning crew actually came in and wouldn't look at me. Normally, they wave and say hello. Nothing today. So it is one extreme to the next. Bowing or Ignoring...Somedays you just can't win.

Monday, December 26, 2005

Memory Found

Okay, said a few prayers while I was looking for my memory and it was found! Thank you angels!



I went to spend one of my gift certificates I got this year and man was Barnes & Noble packed! It was like going shopping the day of Christmas. I thought to myself if one more person runs into me or cuts my path off I might just have to leave without purchasing anything. That would be such a same! I would have had to go out another day to shop. Anyway, I picked up 2 items. One was Wisdom Cards, which I am looking forward to using and the other was The Joy of Conflict Resolution. I don't know why I picked it up. It isn't like I haven't read these types of books before but I figured maybe it would speak to me and maybe something new could be developed and learned. Can't hurt! I have another conflict to deal with tomorrow. I just can't wait to get back to work tomorrow....

Lost Memory

I can not find anywhere the memory stick with all our Christmas day pictures. I just can not find it! I found an old memory stick, which I was looking for months ago which containes nothing of value...but no where is the one I want. Wish me luck!

Sunday, December 25, 2005

My Life Quiz

I saw this for an ad for American Express. I liked it and thought it would be fun to answer.

Childhood Ambition: To be a mother
Fondest Memory: Holding my niece
Soundtrack: Corrina, Corrina
Retreat: Nashville, IN (Friends house)
Wildest Dream: Dance and Sing, Getting married, Having child
Proudest Moment: Not sure
Biggest Challenge: Recovering from depression
Alarm Clock: Old cell phone
Perfect Day: Playing with my niece
First Job: Babysitting, KMart
Indulgence: Coca-Cola
Last Purchase: Dora The Explorer (To many really to count)
Favorite Music: Pop-Opera (Charlotte Church and Josh Groban)
Favorite Movie: Many, Enjoy Pieces of April, About a boy, Napoleon dynamite
Inspiration: Comes from within
My Life: Pretty good
My Card: Amazon Visa

Happy Day Off With Pay

I used to get upset and depressed over any holiday (not just the blues like I had yesterday). One year something changed for me as one of my best friends said, "it is going to be a great day if only because we are off with pay!" That sentence was a turning point for me.

Instead of thinking how I was missing out with all the family "things", which the media tells us was so wonderful. I started using this as my way to cope. On Thanksgiving, it didn't matter if I didn't have anywhere to go. It didn't matter if I ate taco salad for my dinner. What made it a great day was because I was getting paid for it.

So, the morale to this is chose a different path and try to see things differently as it might change the outcome.

With this said, "Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays and Happy Day Off With Pay!"

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Breakdown

I am having a Christmas breakdown. The thought of all the money I spent. Also I have been out of my medication for a couple days. It is cold and wet here. It is suppose to snow, rain or sleet. No one can say for sure. This causes anxiety...what if I get stuck in the house and can't get out? My computer cord is not working..I don't know what the problem is so anytime, my laptop is going to go because it is working off of the battery. This means I could be without contact with the world. AAHH! Oh well, no one is sick in my family so things could be worse I suppose...well, we all know someone worse off than we are so I am trying to pull myself up and out of my funk. But...sometimes sleeping the day away is good therapy for me...so I say, "Good night."

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Party To Go To

Tonight is my Christmas Party for work. I have to go since I planned the darn thing.

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Make A Bag


Started to do some creative gift wrapping this week. I made this bag out of a small lunch like sack bag. Kind a cute but I probabley will not use it. I like wrapping presents versus using bags but thought it might be fun to dress up some plan bags. I did another bag where I put white balls all over the bag. It turned out really cute too but it is in my car with a gift in it already. I was to meet a friend for lunch this week but she canned me until next week. I just didn't bring it back in to take a picture of it. Maybe I will remember to do it this weekend.

Turn Around? It's A Matter Of Time...

Hard to believe...Employee has done a 180 degree turn. Now, employee still comes in every day with some kind of illness, but employee is on time and is working! Now, how long employee can continue to go without missing a day I can't say. Employee today did instant message me to say, "I am feeling sick, I would like to go lay down in my car for a few minutes." My reply, "Clock out while you are gone." Employee wasn't gone 10 minutes. (I think the clock out must have done it for her). Employee must have really started felling better after employee left an hour later, employee called me from the mall where employee was shopping. Hum...

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Reprimanding Employee

I had to reprimand an employee today for her always being absent. I had a pretty rough day. I had to keep reminding her it was "The Policy". I told her several times, the policy states this...blah blah blah. I am sure I haven't heard the last of this conversation as she was extremely mad and said she disagreed with the warning because of her reasons why she had to be absent so much.

I think if she continues to bug me, (I can't wait until tomorrow.) I will have to direct her to the owner of the company, who had to bite tongue today. Owner wanted to blast her and fire her but kept it under control. I believe she got off lucky having to deal with me. She might not be lucky if she continues with her tirade and has to deal with the owner.

I am not going to stand for her to throw things and be disrespectful. I will have to reprimand her again. I am sure it is just a matter of time....and I am a very forgiving, let's let it slide kind a girl so can you imagine what it was that will push me over the edge to be this way?

Sunday, November 27, 2005

What is a girl to do?

UPDATE: I got half way to the party and decided "Why are you doing this to yourself?" I didn't feel good so I turned my car around and called my mom and then my brother to let them both know I wasn't coming. I came home and went to bed. I slept until 5 minutes prior to them coming home. I am feeling a little better now. Head is not pounding as it was but still a little sore.


Going to a family reunion today. I can't wait for all the loud noise and smoke filled room. I got a splitting headache and need to stay at home. Do I forgo the festive activities and lay in bed? I just don't like to commit and then back out. What is a girl to do?

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Zen 2 Remember


Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me either. Just pretty much leave me the hell alone.

The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and leaky tire.

It's always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it.

Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.

Always remember that you're unique. Just like everyone else.

Never test the depth of the water with both feet.

If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car payments.

Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.

If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you!

Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.

If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.

If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.

Some days you're the bug; some days you're the windshield.

Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.

The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket.

A closed mouth gathers no foot.

Duct tape is like 'The Force'. It has a light side, a dark side, and it holds the universe together.

There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.

Generally speaking, you aren't learning much when your lips are moving.

Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.

Never miss a good opportunity to shut up.

Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Turkey Day



This is my brother wearing Olivia glasses, which my niece made and a santa hat, which is to small. Silly man.

Pretty good day today. Well, any day is a good day if it is a day off with pay. You gotta love that.

Family came to the house. It was a nice time. No one over stayed their welcome so that was even better.

My mom went all out, like she normally does, prepairing food. Thanks to her, we had quite a spread. Thanks Mom!

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Communication Breakdown

Meeting with coach went pretty well today. It always goes pretty well. I can open up to him and he can use what I say against myself later in the conversation.

I have realized I have a communication breakdown with many people in my life. Not just people I know. Strangers who I have never met too.

So I have to fix me. I am broken. (Isn't everyone?) I need to be glued back together. It might take some extra duper super glue but I am willing to fix me. I just want to be fixed quickly.

I realize it has taken me 39 years to get this way, but does it need to take another 39 to fix me? I sure hope not. If memory serves me, my attention span will wave and I will be onto the next step in my life in a short time. I just remember, it seems this is a pattern....having a short attention span....Oh No, another issue to have to fix.

Maybe I should just continue to ignore it and try to forget everything. Deal with it next time I am on earth.

Calgone take me away...far far away...some place with padded walls might be nice.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Another Darn Candle

I got my anniversary gift!

I do admit, or rather a friend informed me, that employers do not give gifts to employees each year just for sticking around another year.

Well, I say to that....La De Da!

I know she is right but darn it...I wanted attention...I got it alright...With yet another candle. I got 2 huge ones from my employers for my birthday. One of which just sits in my office unopened.

Have I ever told anyone that I don't burn candles...Or I don't heat them using a burner? I have allergies. So I normally stick them on a shelf. I thought I everyone knew that...

I am seriously thinking about regifting them but the guilt comes over me in huge waves. I have thought about taking them to Goodwill but then the guilt sets in again. I am not even Catholic. Where does all this guilt come from?

I could blame my mother...But it wasn't from her. (I guess I could blame her anyway.)

Hum, I will have to give this some thought. Surely I can find someone to blame (other than myself.)

Linoleum Block Printing

Here is my block carving creation. The end result didn't turn out so well but I am showing them to my family and friends anyway. I really, really enjoyed the process of carving the block so this...I will continue and hopefully, the end process will get better and better. I do have to admit, I enjoy making the carvings much more than just stamping other people's stamps. I also haven't really created anything I was really excited about using rubber stamps. Maybe, just maybe I have found what I really like to do craft wise.




Okay, so let me explain what is what in the pictures. The white dove with the blue background would be the end result. The pictures were taken with a digital camera and not scanned thus the bad lighting....The beige block with the black and some white ink is the actual linoleum block, which I carved.

Those of you who do not know what to get me for a gift, a gift certificate to Prizm Art Supply Store would be a great gift. Just a suggestion...

I am stuck today

Do you know how old people get when they get old? You know what I am saying. Stuck in their ways and don't want to change their habits. Well, I experienced being old today. Not that I am old, just experienced the being stuck part.

My coach called me and wants to change my meeting with him to tomorrow. Can I say how upsetting that was to hear? I was so looking forward to leaving that hour and a half early to go have work therapy! On top of that, I have some complaining to do about one of my employees who is driving me to want to drink! (LOL!)

So I am now stuck. Stuck. Stuck without being able to leave early. Stuck with all my negative feelings. Stuck about being stuck.

I am taking big breaths and breathing in white light...Positive Light. I let go and grap hold of my employees neck...and...just kidding there...

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Block Carving

I finished my first (well technically second) block carving today. This doesn't really count last week either...Although I guess it should. So three carvings I have done. Anyway, I only rammed the sharp cutting tool in my skin once so I thought it was a pretty good go. The first time I block carved was in jr high school...7th grade I think...I really enjoyed carving (the block, not my finger). I think I will post a picture of my design in a few days. I need to get some white paint or different type of paper first. I am pretty uptight about my work, any creative thing I do I get uptight about. Silly. But that is who I am.

Hum, what else did I do today? Well, I did a load of laundry and took a shower. That was about it. It was a great day for a little R and R. The family went north to have a family get together and although I was invited, and appreciated the invitation, I thought I would enjoy the day to myself.

I have high hopes for myself next week! I plan to attack my closet. I need to hang up clothes and tidy my room. I need to throw out my old clothes, which I will never wear so I can have room for the ones I do wear. It is a small closet and space is not infinti and beyond. It is tight quarters in my little room but I love it. It is my room and my little part of heaven.

I hope to have a great week. I only have to work 3 days and 2 of those days I am leaving at 4 pm. On Monday I have my meeting with my coach and on Tuesday I have a facial scheduled. Not a pampering facial. The kind where the top layer of your skin is scrapped off. Kinda like a bandaid coming off a wound when you where little and there was hair underneath stuck to the gooey part. Ouch!

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Anniversary Morning Call

Received a call from the owner this morning on my cell phone. "Today is your anniversary is it not?" "Happy Anniversay". Thanks. "There is also a call on the pager, he didn't leave a phone number, do you want to handle the service call?"

Friday, November 18, 2005

Anniversary Kick

I am still on the work anniversay kick. I haven't even received a freaking card! It isn't like I didn't tell the owner SEVERAL times that my anniversay day was coming up...he knew...and yet, he is OUT OF TOWN and I didn't get a present! Did I mention that I want a present?? I want a PRESENT! My inner child is kicking and screaming. I want a damn present! I don't want a cake. I don't want just a card. I want a present! I want a present! I want a present! Phew! All this kicking and screaming, hitting the floor with my hands and feet is starting to hurt a bit! Also, in our last meeting I asked if I should plan a party for ME. He laughed a bit, kinda shook his head yes like he was going to take care of it! I am being a spolied little brat here I know...but I want a present. Nothing big like a new Mercedes or that cute little $284,000.00 condo I just looked at...how about some cash? $500.00 bonus would be nice.

Well, not all is lost YET. Even though my anniversay day would be over, he does return on Sunday from his trip and I know I will see him this week.

I gotta tell you though, if I don't get a present, I am going to be mad. I might have to stomp my feet and walk a little louder.

(smiles!)

Friday, November 11, 2005

6 year anniversary

No one said anything to me about my anniversay date. Just because you are the boss shouldn't mean the owner of the company shouldn't say anything...right??? Well, unless your anniversay date is actually on November 19th....




Today is my 6 year anniversary with my company. WOW! It feels like 600 years not 6 years! This company has had some changes...good, bad and ugly changes. We are a manufacturers rep for some larger and smaller manufacturing plants. One of our larger lines was bought out by a large "CORPORATE AMERICA AT ITS FINEST" corporation. It has been the worst time of my life! I have never worked with so many difficult people. It makes me sick to think what this larger company once was and where it is now. Makes my stomach ache. I can't even believe how so many people can be put into such high paying jobs. I truly believe CORPORATE AMERICA WILL PUT AMERICA OUT OF BUSINESS! I see it every day with items I quote out. Product coming in from other countries are taking our business and what does CORPORATE AMERICA do, they continue to raise their prices. Who gets the profits, the big heads sitting in those high paying jobs. I would love to throw up on some well polished shoes!

Monday, November 07, 2005

Stupid is as stupid does


I made some stupid mistakes this morning at work. I didn't get to drink my normal breakfast drink which is full of vitamins. I was starving all morning because I ran out and didn't get to the grocery to get more. Come to think of it, I didn't go today either so I will have to go without tomorrow unless I get up earlier than usual and get some. UGH! It is amazing how different you feel when you get up and put something into your body. I usually drink a SlimFast or the Kroger brand mineral and vitamin chocolate drink. It is easy to carry. It is healthy and it taste pretty good. The best part is I am not hungry and don't even think about food until lunch time. The days when I don't drink I am famished at 9:30. Then I make stupid mistakes and every call I receive erks me. I need a drink!

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Niece Is Shocked



Everyone in my house (See post "Ain't we pretty")has put these glasses and teeth on and we have taken our picture. My niece never wanted to put them on even when on occasion, we practically begged her. Finally on her own last evening, she wanted to wear the glasses and teeth and allowed us to take a picture. PRICELESS! That evening when I uploaded the pictures to the Myth box, she got to see herself large and full screen on the TV screen. I almost wet my pants at her look of disgust. I don't think I have ever seen that look come across her face. I hope I don't get to again because I don't know if the next time will have the same outcome, which was laughter.

Four - Four Year Olds


I put together a little party for my niece and there were only four children total. We played games and did several crafts. Sister-in-law helped with a big craft and I was thankful for her doing that! I don't know how the time space would have been filled AND with only 2 hours for the party, I thought I had planned out time pretty well. Not for these children! We were completely finished with all planned in an hour and a half and that is with taking a break. Not that free play is a bad thing, I just wondered how many games and crafts it really would have taken to fill 2 hours. Thank goodness for the moms who helped because I would have lost the little amount of structure there was if it hadn't been for their help....AND I want to do this again...I guess happy (prescription) drugs are a good thing.

Monday, October 31, 2005

Meeting with Coach today

I went to see my mentor or life coach or whatever you want to call it today. I am working on making some positive changes but when will I see those changes? It has been 2 weeks but it seems life forever. Baby steps, baby steps. I want giant steps! I must keep focused. I have been doing the homework given to me. I actually obsessive about what is told to me but I need to put the theory into practice and I am having a difficult time doing it! "Falling on the sword" and "playing dumb" isn't something, which comes easy for me. Willing to want it is one thing. It has cost several thousands of dollars for me to speak to this man and I want to see results and I want to see them now. I just hope I can make the changes I so desperate need and want and continue to be the person I need to be in my role at work. I don't want to disappointment myself.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

More Pumpkin Carving Pictures



Pumpkin Carving



This was our first pumpkin carving. I carved the cat and my brother Paul carved the skull. It was really fun and I hope we get a chance to get this every year. I was really surprised at how easy it was to do. Next year, I am going to try something more difficult.

Size 12 Freak




I am looking online for a cute pair of shoes. In my size, there seems to be numerous amounts of freak shoes. Now, I am not saying only freaks wear these, but why then does the heading of the ads of these shoes state this information? I just wanted a cute pair of "no heeled" mary janes to wear this winter. What I found opened my eyes to the extreme.

My Favorite Person


My favorite child in the entire world is sick. She has been feeling a little ill for the last few days. Last night she had a 103 degree temp and just rested on the couch. It hurts me so when she isn't well. When the one you love is sick and there isn't anything you can do for them it hurts.

Costume party has been post-phoned until next Saturday.

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Calm and Rational?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational.
You are also giving and kind - a great friend.
You are easy going and trusting.
However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

The Paradox

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, yet more problems; more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; big men and small character; steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce; fancier houses but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember to say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember to say "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Dr. Bob Moorehead is former pastor of Seattle's Overlake Christian Church. He retired in 1998 after 29 years in that post. The essay appeared in 'Words Aptly Spoken,' Dr. Moorehead's 1995 collection of prayers, homilies, and monologues used in his sermons and radio broadcasts.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Ain't We's Pretty?




My brother brought home some funny glasses and teeth. I haven't laughed so hard in awhile. These glasses and teeth completely and totally changes your appearance. It is unbelievable how different you really look with and without wearing them! I recommend anyone to try a different look and then take pictures of yourself. It is a fun experience and will make generations to come wonder what the hell happened to us.

Pumpkin Patch



Went to the pumpkin patch today with sister-in-law, her mother, her brother, my brother and my niece. It was fun except for the attack of the bee's. One of them ended up in our car and half way home it stung for the last time...Unfortunately it claimed it last victory on my 4 year old niece's face. It broke my heart to see big tears run down her face.

Monday, September 19, 2005

Do I Need To Quit?



I keep buying more and more supplies for a hobby which I suck at. I love being creative but the outcome of my fruits is crap. I am very upset. What do I do? Should I try to sell my rubber stamps to see if I could, maybe get 1/18th of the money I spent back? Or do I keep trying in hopes I will make something I like? I am so frustrated with what I produce. I am not just hard on myself. I see other people's work and it's crap but they seem okay with putting out crap. Why can't I? I normally do not like to quit but this is really getting the best of me. I am thinking I need to quit and find something I am good at. But what if I don't find anything and I continue down the same path. Being a hobbiest is expensive.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

What I Am Listening To




Give this artist a try!

This is her first album. She is a fantastic piano player and her voice is wonderful. I really hope the album does well. We have way to many Britney, Lindsey's and other b-bobbers in the world. This album is the real deal.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Your Hidden Talent
You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.
You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.
Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.
The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Vanity And The Tattoo

I have always been high maintenance. During my school years, I would wash and curl my hair at night before I went to bed. If I had to work in the yard, I would shower, put my makeup on and get dressed in my nice clothes prior to going out to the chores at hand. It should not be surprised to anyone growing old is not setting right with me. Now, I know I look young and much younger than some of my dear friends who are the same age as I am. Neverless, I am trying to beat the clock of life and I know sooner or later, the alarm is going to go off.

I have been thinking about when I get old, how am I going to be able to see how to put on my makeup? Who will take me to get my hair colored? What will I do if I need my eye brows waxed? These things have been running through my head. One step at a time I told myself. First on my list, I will get permanent eyeliner. This way, when I can't see to put my eyeliner on, it will be there.

OMG!!...I had NO idea (because I didn't do my homework) that it was a tattoo. I had NO idea it was going to hurt like, like, well not that I ever had given birth but I am sure the pain was pretty close to giving birth to twins AT THE SAME TIME. I also had NO idea that the next day, I wouldn't be able to be on my merry little way and do what I normally do on a Saturday afternoon...which is usually shopping or visiting with friends...I just was clueless.

Today is Sunday, 3 days after my procedure and my eyes have finally stopped looking like I was in a fight with Mike Tyson. The swelling is almost gone and you can hardly see where the redness was and were the tattoo begins.

What was I thinking? Well, I don't know what I was thinking before having this procedure but I can tell you now that I have learned my lesson. For now, no more procedures. I must learn to grow old gracefully. I know this is going to be hard on me but I just don't think I can go through the pain of cosmetic procedures again.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Losing A Friend - Lucy


Losing a friend


It's hard to say goodbye to those so loved. Your friend who greets you in the morning and is there for you during the good times and the bad. How do you fill the empty days ahead? How do you breathe knowing she will never wake you by nugging you. Never barking at you when it is time to leave and you will never have those warm, wet kisses on your face. Saying goodbye to a dear friend is hard. It is one of those moments when you hope you gave your friend as much as she gave you. Lucy Allspaw will be missed. I loved her dearly.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Anxiety

Why would a 4 year old have anxiety about getting sick? Have we talked to much about the fact she was very sick when she was born? Tonight my niece was asleep when her mommy said, "daddy, would you take her up to bed now" and my niece started crying and said, "but I have to take my medicine." We reassured her that she wasn't sick and would be okay but her little tiny legs just shook. Seeing her this way just hurt my heart. How would you handle this?

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

ARBONNE

It is official! I am now an Arbonne representative. I put my first order in tonight and was very pleased with how the ordering process went. I also am very amazed at how the product is made of all natural ingredients. This alone makes me very happy on top of NEVER having to make a minimum purchase at any point! I can't wait to get my goodies. Chelesa at work gave me some samples and my skin never felt better....I am not going to get carried away with purchasing product like I did with the other line. I did a great job picking only those items I needed and will wait until my other stock runs out before purchasing any more. I even deleted a few of those "items" I really wanted but didn't need until next time...I am so proud of myself! (lots of laughs!)

Sunday, July 31, 2005


Birthday Girl

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Birthday Party at Aunt Jackie & Uncle Dennis Home

It was good to see everyone at the party. Mags was very happy about getting the chance to meet her new cousin. The disappointment came when she realized she would not be bringing home the gift (Strawberry Shortcake Kit and Painting Kit) she brought for Alyvia.

Alyvia and family lives in New Mexico. Pictures are Victoria (Baby) and her mother (Lydia) and the Alyvia is the Birthday Girl! Daddy (My cousin Denny) was participating at an art show and could not join us. It was a very fun day and the weather was beautiful!

Monday, July 25, 2005

Happy Crappy Day

First day back from a long weekend and today sucked at work. I am behind in my work as usual and I don't see a light at then end of the freaking tunnel for it.

The girls at work seem to hate each other. If one of them isn't talking about the other than I would know something major was happening in the world. I just don't like hearing about it all. I know deep down when they are not talking about each other then they are talking to each other about me. I guess I am better off just letting it all go out one ear. Drives to me want to drink....maybe today is the day I will start!

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Birthday Weekend

Shot my diet!

Friday night we went to Bub's and I had cheeseburger and french fries. Very tasty! Saturday, went out for late dinner at Michaelango's and had italian food...very yummy. Sunday, my parents came over and we went ate out again! This time at Mitchell's Fish Market and I had fish and chips and it was delicious! I definately will get back to normal, healthy eating tomorrow I can promise myself this!

All in all, other than all the bad for me food, I had a great birthday weekend because I got to spend the time with my family.

Happy Birthday to me!

Friday, July 22, 2005

Highlights of my day off

1. Woke up at 5:30 anyway.
2. Went downstairs and ate a pop tart because it was the only thing I had to eat in the house.
3. Watched an episode of Gilmore Girls.
4. Went back upstairs and played Word Mojo while lying in bed.
5. Fell asleep.
6. My cell phone rang twice while I was sleeping. Work calling me on my day off. Turned my phone off.
7. Was woken up by room mate at noon asking if I planned on sleeping all day.
8. Took shower than met friends with small children for lunch.
9. Decided to see the movie Walking With Penguins with friends and small children. First bad idea.
10. Did NOT buy candy or popcorn for the children. Second bad idea.
11. Should have gotten up and bought popcorn for the children.
12. Had major diarrhea in the movie theater restroom.
13. Movie finally starts after 30 minutes of stupid commercials.
14. Children would not be still, be quiet or watch the show.
15. Stress level at an all time high as theater was packed.
16. First friend with small child left the theater as child would not stop crying.
17. Second friend with small child left the theater crying because first child left and realized play date was over.
18. I sit all alone in the dark theater as I sit and think about...the second friend and small child waiting for me in the lobby to take them home.
19. Left theater without seeing the ending.
20. Traffic was horrendous.
21. Child would not stop crying.
22. Nerves were shot to hell.
23. Stomach was still upset.
24. Came home and went to bed.
25. Wondered why I thought a day off would be a good thing.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Seeing Is Believing??

As I get older, I see more people I know. I also see people who I think I know, but really don't. The most freakish thing to me is I also see people, famous people, all the time. I mean, how many famous people do you think are pumping gas or buying drinks at the BP station in Carmel? It isn't like I live in California or even New York City. I live in, or rather very near, Indianapolis Indiana. (Where corn fields used to grow but are now replaced with strip malls and new housing additions.) Isn't Elvis suppose to be dead? I swear I saw him and Christian Slater at Wal-Mart. I am either working to hard or it is time for me to get my eyes checked.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005


Getting her toes done for the first time!

Great looking toes you got there!


First professional toe job


My niece is all girl! She had her first toe nail painting this year and she LOVED it! The next morning, she asked "Auntie, how come you don't have any colors on your toes?" I told her I preferred a French manicure. "Why didn't I get my feet cleaned like you did?" I almost had to laugh at that one because she was SO SERIOUS. Because of her age, they will not do a pedicure, but they will polish so I said, "Well, maybe your feet were already clean?" She came back with, rather sternly, "NO THEY ARE NOT!" The white looking thing sitting with her is Bonnie Bunny. She has to go with her everywhere she goes you know!

Saturday, July 09, 2005

I saw Elvis!

I was on earthcam.com and clicked on the Las Vegas site....I couldn't believe my eyes! I saw Elvis and he was singing and dancing while performing a wedding!!! It was so FUNNY! At the end, he encouraged all the family and guests to come up and sing and dance to Viva Las Vegas. Then he asked everyone to dance, sing and wave at everyone on the internet...and they did! It was great! What a great bunch of happy people!! (or nutty)

If I ever get married, I think getting married by Elvis would be fun!